by sinensys » Tue Oct 22, 2019 3:08 pm
the creatures bears its teeth, raises its weapon. it hesitates, tail twitching under the strain of the god's control. suddenly, the figure relaxes, its beastly teeth retreating into its jaw and spear lowered, before it speaks in a voice warped and layered with the millions of entities encompassed by the greater god. lesser spirits must fuse into a lesser deity to become a greater god.
a moment passes, and it speaks such words:
i have seen the other extreme, the one you sought to achieve.
the world seems to still and silence itself as the god takes a leisure step forwards. then, after another moment, it continues:
you wished to become ever impassive and in control: the perfect machinery with self-correcting software that prevents deviance. but i have seen and i am worried that you haven't. you must reconsider. it is absolutely imperative that you seek a new goal unless you wish to become like them. you must reconsider.
i stand in shock. i believe the fiend: i am familiar with the ways of the snake and the crane, and these news were no lie. this was truth, and genuine concern. and while i have not yet seen the true path for me, i have been convinced to strike out another terrible path. i will not automate and remain cold. i will not obey my software and remain detatched emotionally. i will reject stoicism, for stoicism leads to blindness. no, instead i will seek self control, but also self expression. i will seek to ability to restrain, but also to release. i will master myself for my own enrichment, not for the convenience of others. i will not submit to a silencing of the mind! i will emote, and laugh, and cry, and smile, and frown without reason, yet without abandoning reason. i will be reasonable, but i will permit emotion that isn't boredom or stress. i will welcome joy and sadness, the marks of the days of the week to prevent the monotony of days.
i will seek balance. i will define the scale, and i will find its centre one day.