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by ✦ nemuri » Sat Feb 16, 2019 3:09 pm
I feel
More than I want to
But I feel regardless.
It’s hard
To exactly pinpoint, but
It starts with something like longing -
A desire, a wish, a hope
Simple fantasies of what could have been
And ideals that would make me seem like
A fool. A lunatic.
I mean, to be fair,
I do feel that way sometimes
They aren’t wrong by any means.
(It doesn’t make it any less painful, though)
I feel
More than I want to
But I feel regardless.
The feeling
descends into something
It’s called loneliness, if I recall correctly.
The silent pounding of my heart -
Seems so much louder than what it should be.
Ba dump! Ba dump! Each beat
More prominent than the last.
What could soothe this overworked heart
That seeks words of comfort but pushes away
Contact from other people?
(My heart insists on fighting with myself)
I feel
More than I want to
But I feel regardless.
It bubbles
To the surface
The feeling I now know as sadness.
There’s no one to see me suffer, but perhaps -
It’s for the better.
I don’t want to have to explain, to justify,
Why every inch of me aches for comfort.
Tears remain unshed, words unspoken
Thoughts left to remain in my memory.
It hurts! - I cry to myself;
(But it’s a silent plea that no one acknowledges)
I feel
More than I want to
But I feel regardless.
Someone approaches
And I don’t know why, but I’m suddenly
Feeling the effects of anxiety.
I’m not sure why I fear so, yet somehow -
A single look is enough to send me running.
It’s embarrassing! I want to stop
Fumbling up my words, shying away from others.
Yet I still hide within the shadows of taller people
Wondering why I couldn’t be like them.
I know I didn’t do anything wrong.
(I still think they hate me, though)
I feel
More than I want to
But I feel regardless.
And then,
Red burns through my veins
Like something akin to anger.
What set me off? Where did I go wrong?
I cannot say.
I attempt to restrain myself
But I end up lashing out
Hurting friends, hurting family, hurting myself.
I push them away, I snap at them to
Leave me alone.
(I’ve never felt more like a primal beast)
I feel
More than I want to
But I feel regardless.
Life isn’t
Indefinitely bad, though,
As happiness caresses me gently.
It comes in many forms,
Of small jokes, quips, games.
All fleeting, but impactful at the same time
And I smile in response
This feels nice, I think to myself,
Relishing in the warmth.
It’s calming, refreshing -
(I want it to last forever)
I feel
More than I want to
But I feel regardless.
I want to feel more.
I want to feel less.
I want to feel more.
I want to feel less.
A never-ending war
Between me, myself and I.
Can I control the emotions I feel?
My mind says yes, my heart no;
It’s too much and not enough
All at the same time.
(And the cycle restarts)
I feel
More than I want to
But I feel regardless.
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