by Mz. Hyde » Mon May 28, 2012 5:10 pm
Thanks guys ;)
You're all so sweet, and I love your work too ;)
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This is my creative writing assignment for English, I have being wanting to publish it for a while now..
I've made some sight edits..
It's not the greatest, but it means a lot to me :)
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Bittersweet
Alone, I walk the solemn streets of my mind, of a lonesome world that stole away my pride and innocence, then ripped me to pieces and visciously tore apart the very fabric of my dreams.
I remember when they found us. Soft lips gently caressed my face, as she told me how much she loved me. We are so happy, so perfect. They burst through the door, kicking, screaming, blaming each other, blaming me. I took her hand and we ran like hell from this living nightmare, who's only goal was to tear us apart.
I miss the days when she could hold me high, and we could live and love in peace without prejudice or hatred. Without being lost in the walls or this painful existance, this stereotypical society.
They caught me, later that day, beat me until I was torn and bloody and left me, alone, with tears in my eves and my pride shattered like the shards of a broken glass mirror, I gathered up what was left of my life and pulled myself up harshly off the unforgiving ground. In my hand, I held her torn, frayed photograph. In my pocket, the soft rattle of the pill bottle reminding me that I am not alone.
Never alone.
I remember when I was still small, when they'd hold me high, spin me to the sky, and tell me that I was perfect. How proud they were of their perfect little girl. How did all that love amount to all this revulsion?
Even when I was small, terrified, naive, and I tried to tear myself apart, thinking, hoping desperately, that it would get better. Theylooked in to my eyes and told me that no matter my scars: physical, mental, emotional, that I was still their daughter. That they still loved me, and always would.
Look at me now, all these moths later. She found peace in pill bottles, blood and her slow, painful demise. Apparently she loved me until her dying day, apparently she still does. I look now at her crumpled photograph, trace the contours of her soft face, her cheeky dimpled smile, those loving, yet mischevious eyes. Her heart, so full of love and trust. My sleeping beauty, burried six feet under, never to awaken. Her precious life stolen away too young. So lost in all thier hatred. Their images of the girl that she was supposed to be.
As I mourn silently for my lost love, I write her the letter that I should've written her all those months ago. While there was still time. For her. For us.
" I'm so sorry for everything
The pain our love caused you, and everyone around us
the sufferrening the you eventually succumbed to
I'm sorry that I didn't do more to save you
I will always love you, Hannah
X "
Now, as I stand in silence on the edge of the world, the jagged cliffs invite me to join them. So that they may bleed dry my already bloodless body. Choking down the last of the white pills, I swallow back my shields of tears, Kiss her photograph goodbye. Memories were all I had to live for. But now, as I take my final leap of faith, without a care in the world, all I have are thoughts, hopes and dreams, for the day that we meet again.
Now my sou is free, lost in the gentle breeze, finally at peace.
Without me.
Now, there's nothing left of me but a pile of blood and bone, with a final scream rattling through the remians. It wasn't the ending I hoped for, but the ending I deserved. A useless broken body, never found, never loved, never to breathe. Again.
I'm sorry, Hannah.
I'm your rock 'n' roll Joan of Arc
The queen of broken hearts
I'm here to save the world, but who will save super girl?
- Hate It When You See Me Cry, Halestorm