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intro • faida ⋆ demigirl ⋆ she/her pronouns ⋆ ten years old ;

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Everything Faida has ever wanted is right in front of her; though just out of reach. She's completely unaware of this, still longing for something more in her life without knowing it has the potential to be there.
But, oddly enough, this keeps her happy. It's a promise to keep on going.

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astrological sign: libra [♎]
traits associated with a libra: social, self
pitying, indecisive, gracious, diplomatic
most compatible with: Aries, Gemini, Aquarius
date of birth: October 14th, 2005
birthstone & flower: opal ; marigold

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- embroidery
- storytelling (fairytales)
- braids
- snapdragons
- baking
- peppermint cookies
- waterfalls
- pianos, flutes, ocarinas
- exploring
- butterflies
- white chocolate
- gardening
- gummy sharks

- bumblebees
- facing the truth
- being proven wrong
- getting prodded, poked,
bugged, etc
- interruptions while she's
speaking
- newspapers
- being teased by her
family members
- sour candies

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fairytale • Sleeping Beauty
instrument • the piano
scent • freshly baked bread
sight • fireflies at night
sound • rushing water
emotion • nostalgia
tactile • cold stones in a
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Hobbies:
- Faida loves flower pressing, a way to preserve the flowers she finds to give to Sofi, making sure they aren't going to be wilted by the time she's able to give them to her.
- Arisen from stories drawn from Sofi's childhood, Faida has taken exploring as her few hobbies. Though she has found out very little from the vague information Hayyel has murmured and the small stories Sofiel speaks of, she continues to seek adventures.
- Knotting - while purely for aesthetic purposes, she also uses them as a method of backtracking and mapping off areas where she's visited.
- Though common for plumerians of her age, Faida journals frequently. It gives her an escape from reality, and allows her to compose her thoughts and discoveries to look back upon later. It's something dear to her, as she feels it's a physical representation of her emotions.

Appearance: Faida walks at a slower pace, almost as if she's constantly wary of something, fearing that she may fall. She takes small, quiet steps; fearing that she might intrude upon something. This makes her seem a lot smaller than she seems. More often than not she'll push herself to walk alongside one another - despite her pace - only lagging behind when her mind drifts off.
She often smells unintentionally of vanilla; it's most often on her fingertips from baking. Other scents are associated with her as well - the other most common one being pine, after a long trek in the woods looking for thrill.
Most frequently Faida will dress with simplicity in mind, rather than aesthetic. Much to her mothers' dismay, she doesn't seem to have too much of a fashion sense. She tends to gravitate towards pretty light patterns - which always end up mismatching. Fortunately, Faida doesn't seem to care very much, so provided that she's happy she's sure her mothers are as well.

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Overview: Upon initially meeting Faida, it's clear she's very emotionally-driven. Her friendships rely on more than just mutual interests - it needs an attachment; a unique bond. Unfortunately, Faida doesn't realize how lucky she truly is. Her heart yearns for something more; a life lived like a fairytale, a daydream. In a matter of perception, it's up to the individual to see how Faida acts. Going as far as being delusional on how your life is lived is truly a bold step. The question remains: is it for the sake of others, or for herself?

As for her relationships, because of all the time and consideration put into them, it's easy to see that Faida is a loyal friend. It's hard to break it off with her, especially since she's so determined and emotionally-invested in her relationships. On one hand, it's a guarantee she cares about you well enough and doesn't want to lose you. On the other, she refuses to give up without a fight, resulting in a tiresome argument.

A lot of aspects in Faida's life have many choices, many outweighing some more than others. It's up to you on how you perceive her.

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Faida, even against all odds, is an extremely strong-willed child. She pushes herself up to a breaking point, tiptoeing over the edge of her own demise. Everything she's built upon is fragile; one wrong move and everything comes collapsing down. In an outsider's perspective, the only concern Faida has is making sure she gets what she wants in the end. As brash as that remark sounds, a more somber Faida lies underneath.

She experiences primarily mixed emotions; her conceited behaviour is merely in addition to her determined nature. Nothing is ever point-blank for her, as she searches and searches continually for thrill in her life, things begin to change without warning. It goes at such a pace that nobody can keep up with her.

Struggling to pace herself, Faida finds herself becoming overwhelmed. She holds it in until she's no longer able to underestimate what she feels, resulting in an outburst of uncontrollable emotions. These feelings are what others perceive as her conceitedness. A delusion unknowingly created by Faida, it acts as a way to protect her self-esteem. After all, the fairytales she so often reads...as a child, the meaning entirely goes over her head. Instead of getting some sort of life lesson from these stories, all that's left is a desire to be just like them. She's under the constant assumption that without a proper self-esteem she'll never have her happy ending she desires so.

It's difficult to parent her; being a quiet child, you never truly know what she's feeling. All of her relationships rely on unique bonds with the recipient - without a 'pull', Faida won't be interested. Now guided along by promises, hopes, and dreams, Faida will soon realize she can no longer be helped along. Reality will force her to come out of her shell.

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ｌｏｎｉ ❀ [ 98 / 100 ]

Faida may not be completely aware of her mother's naviety, but you'll find her testing Loni. Seeing how far she can get away with something - not to the point of being devious, as she still can be a nuisance when it comes to having her way. It's hard to appreciate how hard Loni tries to keep everything in shape when things fly over Faida's head, but there's a fond recognition between the two. As Faida grows older, she will begin to understand when to draw the line. As for now, she remains wary of her challenges towards Loni.
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ｓｏｆｉｅｌ ❀ [ 99 / 100 ]

Unlike with Loni, Faida is much more aware of her selfishness around Sofi. Around her, the reality of the situation seems to set in. It's much harder to lie to Sofi when there's few days the two get to spend together. Instead, Faida remains grateful, but most importantly, hopeful. In her eyes, Sofi belongs in a fairytale. It lessens the harsh reality of the situation by pretending her life is just like one you'd read in a book; challenging at first, but everyone ends up okay in the end. Faida relies on their promises to keep their relationship alive.
ｃａｔ ❀ [ 99 / 100 ]

Faida isn't sure what to think of Cat. They've never been the closest, in her opinion, simply because the two have never shared a unique bond. With her mothers, it's based upon wishes and promises. Faida couldn't speak of one moment where Cat and her have truly connected. The concept of MMOs and other RPG games have never truly made sense to her, so she couldn't ever join Cat in that regard. Whenever Faida is left alone with Cat, she certainly doesn't mind the card games she teaches her, but feels like something could be improved on.
ｉｎｏｌａ ❀ [ 99 / 100 ]

Inola and Faida clash - her attitude is a prime example of what Faida stands against, which makes the two at an odd stance. Faida continues to be shot down by Inola's regards, but remains determined. As much as this makes for an incredibly annoying sibling, Faida feels as if she has something to prove to Inola. Unfortunately, any sort of recognition Inola may have shown in the past through the form of her jealousy completely flew over Faida's head. She doesn't realize how potentially arrogant and irritating this can be, which can only lead to conflict in the future.

ａｓａｒｉｅｌ ❀ [ 96 / 100 ]

Faida has learnt to love Asa, after many visits and homemade treats. Initially wary and confused, it took a long time for Faida to warm up to Asariel as it was a new experience for her. The first few visits were strange - Asa looked familiar, but she wasn't sure of who she was. Helping out Loni was a big step in their relationship, as the two would often spend time together while her mothers were tired. Their bond is completely relying on mutual respect for each other, but there's much more to it than Faida realizes.
ｈａｔｏ ❀ [ 99 / 100 ]

Hato is an interesting character to Faida - she enjoys his happy, quirky nature whenever he comes to visit. Many of her family members seem to enjoy the piano, which is an easy thing to bond over. Hato's always happy to see progress with Faida's piano skills, no matter how small it may be. After all, she prefers to play freestyle melodies. Stars have never truly interested her, but it's enjoyable to spend an evening looking at them with Hato. He makes it all the better with his quirkiness, which only annoys Faida when he runs off mumbling about stars.
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ｄｅｍｉｅｌ ❀ [ 98 / 100 ]

Demi and Faida's relationship is a mixed one; it's due to his disliking of Sofi and Cat, but Faida still generally likes him herself. It was hard for her to get used to the three he most commonly hangs around with - as Faida isn't used to fresh faces. They're a difficult pair, especially since Demiel is pushy himself. Faida appears to be indifferent to his teasing, but it usually ends up hurting her self esteem. It's best not to think about it in that way - since she still likes Demi's visits and his company every now and then.
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Faida has never really spoken to Samael, being wary of him ever since she was able to open her eyes. Looking at him in photos even takes a great deal of strength for her, as it feels like he's always somehow...there. Over her shoulder, almost. While it wouldn't necessarily be classified as fear, it's more along the lines of being cautious about the unknown. To her, Samael is a mystery she doesn't want to solve. From what she's gathered, it's best not to dwell on it. After all, chances are she'll only end up getting more involved in the mystery.
ｈａｙｙｅｌ ❀ [ 99 / 100 ]

The vibe that Hayyel gives off perplexes Faida. It's almost twisted; she thinks of Hayyel as one thing, but an idea sparks and then she goes onto another. The one thing she's noticed for certain is her indifference around Sofi. She's uncertain of what has happened in the past, and is far too scared to delve deep enough and ask. She's heard very little about why Hayyel acts like she does, ending up more wary than intrigued. There's one thing that Faida knows for certain, something her mothers have always taught her - if you're uncertain, stay away from it.

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‘Believing’, as a whole, has shown to be a large part of Faida’s life. As a child, it’s easy to say that she can be influenced by the people around her, which, in her case, is true. Whenever she’s unsure or in a foreign scenario, it becomes easier and easier to influence her actions and thoughts. However, this doesn’t necessarily mean she’s a pushover of any sorts.

As a determined plumerian, it’s hard to comprehend why Faida would ever be easily influenced or even considered to be naive. To put it simply, it’s a matter of what each individual situation is, and how much it means to her. Her source of motivation is hope - which could be put into many different categories themselves - so often, in a situation where there’s seemingly no hope, she’ll be less motivated. This stems from the fact that she’s always had trouble with her self-esteem, as Faida won’t be as motivated to take on an ‘impossible’ challenge.



Her beliefs and opinions aren’t always influenced directly, either. She’ll, of course, stubbornly deny any sort of influence to her thoughts, but once you know her well, it’s easy to see she takes things into consideration rather than throwing them aside. Unfortunately, in Faida’s life, this aspect of her nature seems to confuse her the most. She’s not quite sure on what to think of her life, and with all the outward forces to consider, it’s hard on her to make a consensus decision between all of them. While she doesn’t have to come to a conclusion every single time she has a problem, Faida misleadingly feels obligated to.

It brings peace to her mind for the time being, yet, she never does come around to saying her true thoughts. It’s always a matter of which answer will please the most people that she’ll most often say - and go as far as to try and convince them, being her stubborn self. She feels obligated to prove to everyone her ‘opinion’ - when in reality, it’s just trying to make everyone else like her more.

Faida is often indecisive because of this; she can’t make a proper decision without proper time given to her. Because she’s so determined, an idea she doesn’t like is a difficult scenario for her. Does she say something about it, or go along with it? It’d really depend on the specific plumerian and how likely they were to change their mind about their plans.




Faida believes in all the silliest of things, and upon first meeting her it’s plain to see. Just as any other child would, she’s heavily influenced by fairytales and books. Magic, karma, supernatural-esque beings - she’s enthusiastic about it all. However, just like in her favourite fairytales and stories, magic can be used for evil. As a young child, Faida doesn’t see all the possible repercussions for using magic asides from “having it used in the wrong hands.” That’s more of a white lie to keep her parents at bay, however - she’s truly interested in all things magic, regardless of any sort of consequence.
In her mind, it couldn’t be that bad, right? Those in fairytales end up fine.

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When it comes to making judgments about others, Faida is usually an intuitive plumerian. She can’t really be described as a skeptic or naive; it depends on the situation itself and how much it concerns her in the long run. Additionally, the people she’s closest to are most often the ones she misses out on most. It’s almost like letting your guard down; Faida ends up being so used to them that she won’t often consider any dishonesty in them.

As for those who she’s just met, it’s much easier to challenge their words. This is due to two things. Because Faida has lived a rather secluded, family-oriented life, it’s somehow made herself believe that anyone outside of her family should not be trusted. It’s often difficult for her to meet new people, especially those involved with her family members. In a way, she feels betrayed - as selfish as it is. It’s hard for her to adapt when it concerns her family, but it’s also much easier to play it off as being a little too skeptical.

The second reason is because of Faida’s loyalty to her relationships. She won’t give them up so easily, so questioning their honesty won’t end up being a good thing later on. Despite it being a minor thing that could contribute to a healthy, balanced relationship, Faida refuses to do so in fear of losing her few friends. With strangers, it’s much easier to speak her mind more often. This is the same with her indecisiveness.

Unfortunately, with the way Faida has herself set up, this seems to be the near opposite. As such a demanding plumerian, how does she make herself appear balanced? You’ll often find her challenging her family members and friends to see how far she can get away with something - like seeing how long you can put your hand in a bowl of hot water. Why isn’t it the same for her intuitivity?

The truth is, she’s not quite sure. It’s natural for things to fly over her head, but it seems her senses are heightened around strangers, where she often feels in the most danger. In a way, she’s much more secure around her family, so it’s second-nature to not question it. However, as a child, she isn’t aware of this.

Her awareness of danger might not be as good as you think. Faida can be highly influenced when it comes to media around her - especially newspapers, books, and movies. Her opinions are drastically changed about the world whenever she picks up a newspaper - and at times, it's hard for her. Even if it limits her worldview and perspective, she can't bear to hear certain things as she's only a child. Books and movies are different. Due to the kids genre she most commonly watches, everything seems to have a happy ending, regardless of what happened. This has changed her perspective a lot - especially with things not commonly discussed, like magic and the supernatural.

Sofi often tells Faida to be wary of things she's not sure of; best not to look into it if you don't know what you're getting into. Faida does abide by this for certain situations, but her curious mind secretly yearns for more.

In her defense, these situations don't seem as likely to be dangerous, so she lets her guard down just as she would around her family. While she doesn't necessarily feel secure adventuring out into the forest in hopes of finding Sofi's childhood 'faes', Faida doesn't feel particularly threatened by it.

In the future, she won't be so quick to do so.

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Faida’s perception of the world is based upon individual things. However, if you were to ask her, she’d say something along the lines of “the world is simple - it’s the people living in it that make it complicated.” Of course, many people think differently - but what causes her to think this way?

To put it simply, since her view of the world is so restricted, Faida is often seeing just the good things in the world. Whenever she just so happens to see something negative - she blames it on others quite easily. One could argue that the world is scientifically complex - but Faida’s far too young to think of it that way. Theories about the world and how it originated don’t concern her. As far as she knows, it’s a home for plumerians alike: nothing more, nothing less. The only true things that concern her are the challenges she faces around her.

She finds joy in simplistic things - many of which are family-oriented, and found in nearby forests and outgrowths. Since Faida hasn’t grown up with much to go off of, it was easy for her to adapt to finding interest in things other than friendships. Of course, there’s always Cat and her games - but by the time Faida was old enough to understand them, it was a little too late. She’d already developed her interests that simple card tricks and consoles didn’t concern her. However, her family isn’t useless when it comes to sourcing her happiness.

It’s the subtle things that make her smile - momentarily fooling Cat with her own tricks, grabbing Inola’s attention, if only for a few seconds - seeing Loni get some rest. Things like these truly make her happy, even if they’re small gestures. Ultimately, her motivation lies in seeing how many of these acts she can accomplish each day.

Unfortunately for her, these little things aren’t always the freshest in her mind. The negative aspects of her life have more of an impact on her; despite not showing it most times, it chips away at her self-esteem ever so gradually.

However, there are other things that contribute to her perception - involving senses. Despite it being a more secretive, cherished part of her life - it’s one of the biggest contributions to her happiness. Around the forest - where she can truly practice these senses - is where her true heart lies.

The thrill of seeing what new sights and sounds the forest has to offer her is what keeps Faida motivated to explore. She's truly taken after Loni - even though she's not as focused on finding butterflies as her, seeing new ones in the forest makes an excellent story to tell her mothers. It's not just limited to butterflies, either - all sorts of insects, birds, reptiles, interest her. In the long run, she's much more observant when it comes down to her senses.

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Fears:
Faida's fears are general, rather than being focused on only certain aspects of life. Instead of fearing specifics - it's a much more broader topic. As a result, she'll often forget that she even has any fears. As nice as this sounds for Faida - to be able to act fearless, even if only for a few moments - she'll often come crashing down as a result of it. Whether it be realizing her fears once more, or getting hurt because of her irrational fearless behaviour - she still hasn't seemed to learn her lesson.

She's never been truly fond of life. As Faida grows older and older, she will struggle to find peace and balance. This is an effect of her fearing the unknown. Not knowing if this could be her last move, or if there will be many more to come - it keeps her from being truly free to do what she wishes. Something constantly hanging over her, whether she realizes it or not. Her fearless nature is what keeps her forgetting - the thrill of it all momentarily masks what's yet to come.

It throws Faida off guard to see violence; keeping her perfected lifestyle in tact is crucial to who she really is. Her fears extend not just only to violence, but the repercussions themselves - what's the aftermath of the situation? As a child, she has a limited understanding of such things.

As she grows older, however, it will soon dawn on her that complexity in her life can be a good thing.

Promises:
"Ma, promise me that we'll see each other again, alright?"

To Faida, promises aren't as convoluted as most make them out to be. In fact, to her, it's simply a way of assuring the other person is on the same page: some sort of unbreakable bond until the promise is fulfilled. You'll often hear her say things like "promise me", mainly because that's how she thinks loyalty works. It's never truly been brought up to her that promises can be broken - to Faida, it's viewed as a strengthener to a relationship. In her mind, no one would have a reason for wanting to break a promise.

In a way, Faida can be ignorant when it comes to the concept of breaking a promise. She most often thinks the person is overreacting, since no one would ever have the indecency to do such a thing. She's even asked Loni for reassurance - but in her mother's defense, it was simply a matter of being confused with what Faida was saying and going along with it regardless. After all, it's her one way of being truly connected to Sofi.



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