(Lucy's diary)
Hm. New diary again. Whelp, better just begin writing. I could whine for pages about how the last one was so small, but I won't.
Because history is one of the most important things about a person (that's what Reef says, anyway), I'm going to write about it now! Hooray! Oh, and I'm also ditching the usual coloured-speech thing for dramatic effect.
***
It began one morning while I was at school. Everything
always happens at school.
I was still in contact with Reef, who, while not exactly my best friend, was close to me, and I to her. Somebody had formed some stupid rebel group against the Populars, and despite knowing that it would be much more practical to, you know,
just launch a damned complaint instead of sending out people ti attack, they did just that.
After a really bad one,
all my musical instruments, sheet music, and everything else important to me was either torn, broken, or otherwise unusable. I swear they were trying on purpose to break me or something. They came in just as i was opening my locker, that has to be on purpose. As Reef and I sat together during lunch, the other Populars somewhere else, the two of us discussed the problem:
"While my financial situation at the moment is far from perfect - the rest of my allowance will be received in a while - if you would be willing to wait two weeks I would easily be able to help you," Reef stated calmly. She had already finished eating, since she had smaller portions, but still she stayed for rhe sake of manners.
"Wait now. You could afford a bass guitar and five rare sheets of sheet music, all without this eating much at your own natural lifestyle?" I asked.
She shrugged, and cocked her head. "Yes. Have you not figured that out? It is no more implausible than you bringing a guitar to school and placing it in your locker, or perhaps composing a nice-sounding song on the spur of the moment."
I blinked at her, then laughed. "Yeah, true. Anyways, I don't think I can wait for two weeks, since most of my time is spent with rock and metal. I have my violin, yeah, but I don't think that could make the same sound as a bass." I tried once, and I failed terribly. My parents looked like they would die that day.
"What do you suggest then?" Reef replied.
"I don't know, actually. I'll probably be figuring it out by tomorrow." I finished up my food and glanced up at the clock. Five minutes till the bell rang.
She smiled. "Good for you then. I will always stand by your side, and if you ever need my help, I will always be happy to provide it."
***
I considered this advice as I stood in my room, absently playing a lullaby to myself. It was a simple song - naturally, since I can't really play well with the violin while thinking about other things - and my bedtime (not that I had a set-in-stone one) wasn't actually for about twenty minutes.
Maybe I could, like, set up a business or something, I thought.
But then, the only practical skills I have are acting and music, and even then nobody's willing to hire a seventeen-year-old for that.The song intensified in volume as my thoughts continued. (Hooray, fancy vocabulary! ... I'm killing the mood, aren't I?)
My room is still soundproofed, but I left the window open, and I heard sudden shrieking. This disturbed me. Like, a lot. So I looked outside, terrified, but I found that there was nothing significant. All I saw were two people seeming to have a screaming contest or something downstairs.
I knew my father should have chosen a flat higher up.
With that, I shut the window, again thankful for soundproofness. I considered my fear for a few moments, replaying the lullaby once more.
I'm a musician, why would I be afraid of loud sounds? If not for the song being almost routine to me, like how you don't need to concentrate to figure out the answer to 1+1, I probably would have totally butchered it.
The wind blew my window open, and I heard another scream. I was distracted by it once again, missing five notes in a row, but I didn't feel any fear.
That's it! I'm not afraid of loud sounds, I'm afraid of the unknown! I was afraid that there was something I didn't know about happening down there! The revelation made me so proud of myself that I missed another note. Placing my violin back on its stand, I climbed onto bed.
I didn't sleep, still wondering about this newfound knowledge.
The unknown is basically the root of all fears. Darkness? Because we don't know what's in front of us. Spiders? ... Not actually related to the unknown, but whatever. I'm sure I can come up with some nonsensical reason once I've gotten my sleep. Death? Because we don't know what happens after it.I know it's incredibly suspicious that I happen to think of something usually insignificant and dwell on it for so long that it leads to my current situation, but that's just me at night. Lack of sleep does weird things to a person. Or dog. Whatever.
I bet I could take advantage of this and scam people using that fear. Yes. My mind does usually go from canine fears to conning people. That's normal, right? It seems pretty ordinary to me.
***
I stood in the music room with a violin in my paws, sawing (for lack of a better word) at the strings. A melodic tune filled the air, light, low, and airy.
It was the one I had played during my last birthday party. I had written down the sheet music, and sometimes revisited it and practiced the song. Obviously, I didn't compose a perfect one in the span of ten minutes, so it had plenty of mistakes and things that could be better, but I hadn't bothered fixing them.
Reef recognised the song, naturally. And her first thoughts: "Is this a thinly-veiled attempt to guilt trip me with a reminder of you being with the Populars without me? You are about to ask of me something downright ridiculous, correct?"
(Recap: At that party, I and the rest of my team were there, along with all the Populars. Reef convinced me that the team, however much they might hate me, would be better friendd than they ever would be if I just tried getting along. Paraphrasing. And then, I played a song on the violin - her favourite instrument to listen to, apparently - which symbolised the life with the Populars versus life without them.)
"Talk about cynical," I commented. Sensing that this conversation would need more brain cells than the amount I use while multitasking... and more brain cells than I often use... I made a quick ending for the song.
"I am not being cynical," she protested. "I am simply using my knowledge of your personality to sense your next course of action."
"And your senses are incredibly cynical?" I deadpanned. She rolled her eyes.
"Let us move on from this. It does not take Albert Einstein to realise that you have a plan that involves me. Voice it now."
I tilted my head. Since when did she get so...
vocal? Regardless, I explained. She listened attentively, her expression confused. Still, we had time. If she wanted to ask questions, she could. Lunch didn't end for ten minutes, and if you know me you'll also know I use less time than that to explain things.
I knew she'd stay by my side, and that she did. Her objections were flimsy, and I could tell that her inner
politician um... devious person... found nothing wrong with my ideas. She agreed to help me, the brains to my charm and the planner to what needed to be planned. Truthfully, if Henry were here, he would have done a more organised job, but I made do.
And partners in crime we became.