( ♎ ) relax, youre indecisive by nature

[apathy,]

2.1.15
" embrace the martian "

[apathy,]

2.2.15
" oh, why? " she cried.

[apathy,]

2.7.15
“ was it hard letting go of him? it was, and it wasn’t because i missed him, because who he is right now isn’t who i miss, i don’t know who he is anymore. but it was hard letting go because i had this person who had became a huge chunk of my life, a person who lit fires in the darkest parts of me, and then they had left me, the fires burned out and i now had a gaping hole in my heart, and that’s why it hurts to let go. it happens in stages really, i had found myself one day laughing at how pathetic i was for ever loving him, but the next day i was on the floor of my shower begging god to bring him back to me. i think if anyone’s every experienced heartbreak you know how hard it is to do things without that person. it’s entirely way too hard to move on, and it’s also hard to accept. it’s also hard to grasp the fact that the person you had grown to love is now a stranger to you. you don’t talk to them anymore, but you hear about them and your stomach clenches and i can promise you it won’t feel too great. i’m sorry to tell you this but you’ll probably always have a spot for them in your heart, the hole they made can be filled by them, and only them. i truthfully don’t think i’ll ever let go of him fully either. ” x

[apathy,]

2.9.15
there’s always a predator,
and there are always prey.
you, my love, are the predator.
though, for some reason you’re
confused with the role and acting
as if you are the prey. you’re
deliberately reading the wrong lines.
which, by the way, can only go on
for so long before your lies begin to
wear down your freshly bleached,
shaven down teeth to shine a light
onto your once blood stained fangs.

[apathy,]

2.10.15
" don't build your walls back up again, my love. "

" oh, i won't. i will just be doing repairs to better myself,
and then i'll build a wall waist high so people can step
over if they want to. "

" then why build one at all? "

" i want to keep myself grounded, to keep myself from
running. it's there to protect myself, not to keep people
out. "

" sometimes you need to run, to see new things instead
of being entrapped in the same place. to be entrapped
with the same people. let the field you are in be free
instead of keeping everything in and everything out,
waist high or ten feet high, you're still keeping something
out. "

[apathy,]

2.11.15
he said he love me

i said, " baby boy, fall in line, " ok

[apathy,]

2.16.15
" how do you not know how beautiful you are? "

[apathy,]

2.18.15
" you were the first real person to be
with me "

" and the first person i could be with
and actually trust. you made me happy,
you made me laugh and smile and you
made me feel safe and protected i didnt
want anything else... "

" and i still don't... "

[apathy,]

2.18.15
i have written stories about love,
i have written tales of heartbreak.
i have loved and i have lost,
i have drowned and i have resurfaced.

[apathy,]

2.20.15
" thinkin' they lions and tigers and bears, i go huntin'
put heads on my fire place, oh my, take time "