Stay with me.Let ME protect you Allie.Please,I can't do this without you!
Thorn's eariler words echoed through his head.Allie hadn't come near him in the past few months,ever since her mate,and the father of her pups,Sesshomaru,had died because of Max.Execpt for when he had begged her,pleaded her,to let him protect her.But she had hung her head,and walked away.Whenever he,or another male,even her brother,whom she trusted more that he,came near her,she would cower in fear,tears would run down his eyes.
He hated every single minute of it.
He hated having to stay away from his best friend,no,the girl he loved,hated having to watch her suffer,always from a distance,knowing he could do nothing about it without scarring her further.His heart ached everytime he saw her,and knew that they could no longer be like they used to.Full trust from both of them,laughing,having a good time,just being there for the other.
Nowadays,she mostly hung around Callie and Willow,and her daughter Toffe.Whenever she was with them,he would sometimes go and ask if he could join them.Allie would shy away,almost as if he was a danger to them,and ocasionaly bare her fangs at him.She would then run off,Toffe and Willow trying to catch up to her and calm her down.Callie would stand behind and apologize for Allie,tell him she's not sure of what's going on.
And he always said the same thing.
"I'm not upset."
But that was a lie.He was upset,but not at Allie.He was upset at the fact that now,more than ever,he needed her,craved her,but couldn't get anywhere near her to express his feelings to her.His heart stopped everytime she looked at him with fear,he almost cried when she started apologizing repeatedly,for running into him like he would hurt her.He would never think of hurting her.He would never think of touching her in a hurtful way.
But she though he would.He couldn't keep staying away from her,he HAD to tell her!He could hold it anymore!
He felt bad for the youngest couple in their pack though.Izaya,and Allie's daughter,Toffe.Whenever she though he was too close to her daughter,Allie was snap and snarl at Izaya,until the Omega gave submission,and slouched away from his Alpha.Howevermit hadn't been until a few weeks ago,that Izaya no longer gave the usual submission that Omega's gave.He stood tall,tail up,and Thorn knew he wouldn't move.He made no growls or hateful moves toward Allie,but stood beside his mate protectively.Allie,confused as ever,would go to Callie's side,shivering,and hide.Callie,just so Allie wouldn't feel like she was trying to betray her,growled at Izaya until he walked away,Toffe bounding faithfully by him,nuzzling his side.
He hadn't figured out until about a month after it happened the first time,that Toffe was pregnant.Izaya was only showing that he'd always stand by his mate.Huh,Thorn never would've guessed the little twerp had it in him.
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Thorn had decided that he had had enough.It could no longer wait.One night,Allie disappeared.But,he wasn't worried.He knew where she was going.She was going to "their place".It was a small hidden medow,complete with flowers and a tiny little pond,that was all too perfect for them.It had been discovered on a day when they had come back from hunting.
Truthfully,you couldn't find it unless you were looking.They had found it when Thorn tripped into it.After over tweny minutes of laughting her head off at him,Allie and Thorn went to explore it.They made it their place,a place they only knew about,and could go when something was troubling them,or they just wanted to count the stars together.
He knew,for a fact,that if he went there too,she'd still be scared,but she'd know it was him who was there with her.He didn't want to scare her.He didn't,no he couldn't hurt her,even if he tried.Phyically or metally,he couldn't hurt her.He wouldn't.Be he had to tell her that he was in love with her,whether he scared her or not.
He set his nose out,following her sweet scent,soon arriving at the entrance.He ducked under,heaving through the strong bushes.He saw that she was at the pond.As he moved through the bushes,her head snapped up,and she stared at him a second before backing against a tree,and snarling.
"Get out of here!D-don't touch m-me,leave me a-alone!Pl-please,don't hurt me,I-I..."
He felt his heart shatter at this.At her,so scared of her best friend,enough to beg with him not to hurt her.He lowered his head,and tucked his tail.He was given submission like an Omega.It had surprised her enough,that she had stopped growling.He had never given submission to anyone.He was too proud.But,for her,the girl he loved more than his own life,he made an exeption.Exept,he didn't keep his head lowered.He looked up at her,tears running down his face,hurt breaking his heart,and spoke.
"You don't have to come near me if you don't want.Truth be told,all I want to do right now is hold you,tell you it's okay to cry,tell you it's okay to be scared,to hurt.But I'm afraid to,because I know I'll scare you.And I don't want to scare you.But,I can't get close to you without you looking at me like I'll hurt you.You should know by now that I wouldn't throw all of our friendship away just so I could take advantage of you.I'd never even think of that.I'd hurt my own self if I ever hurt you like that.But,even though I know you're scared,that I know this probably won't make any differance,I have to tell you this."
He slowly sat down in the smooth grass,and met her eyes with his,her eye's filled with fear.He sighed softly,and took the biggest leap he had even taken in his life.
"I love you Allie.I love you more than life itself,more than anything on this Earth.And it breaks my heart to see you break down like this,to hurt this bad,and having to stand on the side and watch it,knowing I can't do anything but watch like it's a freak circus show that turns good natured dog's like you into someone who scared of her brother even.Her son."
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I had an idea for the other half of this story.The very last part is mature,but most of the rest of it is fairly fine for this forum.If I get at least 6 comments,I'll contine it.And if I get 9 comments,I'll post the whole thing on DA!
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