Untitled ranting blog

[Study in Scarlet]

I guess you could call this a blog ... ugh I don't know what the hell this is ... I don't even know why I am bloody writing it. Well I guess I am doing this more for me than for you, who every you are that is reading this right now. Well who ever you are, I a m sure you live your perfect little life sorounded by your friends and such. Let me tell you something, friends don't exist ... anybody who is your ' friend ' will only stay friends with you untill what ever their use for you is gone. I am not just making this up either, I have my own personal experiences to prove this is a fact. Sorry if I just burst your bubble, mabey your friend is diffrent, I dobn't know. Mabey your best friend is friends with you because they like to be with you, mabey they don't just waant to suck the life out of you ... untill you can't take it anymore. Now I may sound like a downer, like I've never had friends so I don't belive in them ... no .. that is untrue. And what do I have to offer ..... that people would want to use me for untill I was completely drained of everything? That is one question I have yet to awnser. I have discoverd that people will pretend to be your friend, and then at some turning point they decide that they don't need you anymore. Wether if that is that you move schools or you friend is moving to Mexico ... either way they shut you out. I suppose the reasoning behind that is because what is the point in keeping conncetions if you're moving away anyway? you see I am not like that .. but what makes me angry is that it comes suddenly and unexpectedly .. the just stop talking to you all togehter .. or they act like your not there.