Um, I wrote this a while ago about this guy, i haven't shown anyone...but i guess it's kinda how i feel/felt?
hope you like it! I would love it if you commented or stuff yeah haha
Sitting here, alone…Nothing to do but remind myself about what a horrible person I am. I would lie down and cry, but someone might see me and I don’t want that. I have to keep it inside, no one can know how I am, no one can tell that I am hurting and dying on the inside, all they see is a happy me, gosh, they are so gullible. I don’t know what to do…whatever I do, it will end badly. So I’m stuck…when I’m with him, you’re sad, but if stop being with him, he’ll be sad. I just can’t handle it anymore. I have to find a way to get out of this…without getting anyone hurt, but I know that I will always be scarred by this. I am me, I have no idea why this is happening to me! Someone actually loves me, for the first time in my life…and I don’t feel the same way back and it makes me feel so horrible it nearly always brings me to tears. You both have to stop fighting over me; I am not someone worth fighting for, and not a prize to be won, you are obviously trying hard, as you always tell me…But…I don’t know what you have to do to make me love you, I want to love you like you love me and make everything alright, but happy endings aren’t for everyone. I have stuffed up your life and your friendship with him…stupid, stupid me.
