patchy's poems and other writing

[the folly of man]

you appear in every dream i have at night
you make me feel better when im not alright
and im upset when you leave

except its not how i wanna feel
tell me, is it love for real?
i dont wanna fall in love
i dont wanna fall in love
its not that i dont care about you
you know why i feel this way
i just wish it wasnt so confusing every single day

[the folly of man]

the situation is bad
i dont know how to feel
they hurt me for real
and now they're back

[the folly of man]

who will love me
who will i love back
who will set me free
from the place i've locked myself in
before it turns black

[the folly of man]

maybe i should stop trying to comfort myself
and just accept who i am
maybe i gotta just deal with being alone
with nothing but the sound of the fan

i think i've figured myself out
but im not sure what everyone's going to think of me
so for now im not talking about
everything that i've discovered

maybe i just gotta love myself
and forget about what happened before
maybe i should just forgive others and forget what occurred
in hopes that the past wont repeat

i hope the past wont repeat

[the folly of man]

you came into my life like a storm
and now you're what i love most about the world
i know you're not always the nicest
but when you are
it feels like the best thing to ever happen

you're a hurricane
and im out in the rain
and the floods
because i want you to be safe
and cause i want to show my love

[the folly of man]

failing at everything i do
in my attempts to not disappoint you

i can't manage my time
but those problems are mine
you don't have to worry about them
you're just fine

and i hate being like this
and it's my fault it went this far
i wish i could control it
im trying so hard

[the folly of man]

i know simba is a lion
but i howl like a wolf
because im really trying
to do everything i should

[the folly of man]

feeling like nothing
as i fall back into self-loathing
because i cant get anything done
i cant get anything done

[the folly of man]

learn to love yourself a little more
find out you're not who you thought you were
you're worth more than gold
so let yourself be bold

[the folly of man]

i miss how it used to be
pretending to tear down trees
fly like bees
eating fire
do anything for what we desired

its not that i want to turn back time
i just want to feel like that again