lovestruck wrote:losing people hurts, butrealizing they were so toxic and unappreaciative hurts more. realizing you were nothing to them is devastating, but the worst part is knowing how much you cared for them, when you were worth nothing at all. but they are not worth your time. every little moment you spend with them is not worth it.
but moving on-it’s amazing. when you finally meet those new friends, and you’ve let go of the old ones. you’ve finally realized how blessed you are and just how mistreated you had been. it’s rejuvenating, rejuvenating to actually feel happy around other people for the first time in so, so long. and finally, every moment of your life feels like it’s added up to this one, and every moment with them you’re laughing and smiling- and happy. so, so happy.
it’s nice, knowing you’re not alone, and never will be, because all around you are people that care for you, people that you never even knew about before. all it takes is that one moment, when you decide to finally be set free from those people burdening you. one moment, and you’ll open up a whole new world of people, who will love you more than they ever could have
it’s funny how I was pretending I was ok for so long
pretending to be looking up,
to see a future,
that I was better off even if I was left broken hearted
I was wrong. It doesn’t get better
I was pretending to be ok, to see the light- pretending that I had moved on when I hadn’t.
I never let myself grieve properly