by wriolette enjoyer » Fri Dec 08, 2017 2:15 am
i decided to leave her alone,
my grades are still in the process of fixing and i am leaving for germany on the 19th so thats just amazing
i have a flight to catch on the 19th and just...yeah
basically im not really that active on chicken smoothie so you guys can follow me on ig (where im more active)
its @arctic.wisteria
honestly i dont know what to do anymore.
i just need help and support but ive got my friends for that. they all helped and supported me in my rough times trough this break up.
i mean yeah she called me something terrible (not going to say what) but i dont only get why??
she is the one who cheated, she is the one who lied, she is the one who said bad things behind my back
and yet she still says im the bad guy in this?
i mean yeah ive posted some things on my story but honestly, half of it was like my irl personal stuff????!
for example: my friend and i jumping in puddles and my other frendo getting a haircut
so she starts to play the victim card in front of everyone as we speak and the only thing i dont get is why she does that because i know i have done some bad things but cheating on me during a relationship and breaking my heart, now that is unacceptable for me. but hear me out, this is NOT the first time that i experienced heartbreak but about the millionth so its fine. but i have gave my heart up to her and she breaks it in an instant.
of course, i found this all out when i was going trough her facebook and instagram posts (yes i do that sometimes to my friends because why not xD?)
and what ive found was just...UNSPEAKABLE OF SORTS.
the moments ive read that, i couldnt sleep or stop shaking at night until i just decided to break up with her. she wanted us to stay friends and she even said that i need to stop being so depressed.
im sorry Niki but i cannot stop a mental disorder.
i know youre anxious and that you have problems so i wont force you to speak of what you dont like, but disrespecting my mental illness is just like crossing the line in my head.
i am ranting i know but no one of my friends would listen so if anyone wants to talk to me...just shoot me a PM and we can talk or DM me on my IG (stated above)
so....yeah
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