they’re quick to act when I say I have nobody but they’re liars where are they- when I need a shoulder to cry on? when I need somebody, anybody when I’m holding back a flood of tears yet if I were gone they’d say how much they loved me how much they missed me liars they never care untill you’re gone.
why is a compliment so easily denied whilst every critique, every negatory comment, it seeps into every thought in my head, untill I’m overwhelmed with the not enoughs, the imperfections
in a world where we only see the highlights of others lives- our very sanity snatched away by comparison- how could I possibly believe that I am perfectly imperfect
but you- you show me how perfect I am how you made every curve- every line, every hair on my head and you tell me that I am perfectly imperfect
its funny to me how this started out as a journal of sorts, and just slowly transitioned into poetry, or verses I suppose. I think the raw emotion.. explaining is just something I can’t do without some sort of art form. I can’t convey these feelings in any other way.
I also,, never realized how long I’ve been faithful? And I’ve realized that although they were hard, so many of the things that happened to me have brought me closer to God, and it’s so, SO worth it. People who haven’t found him wont understand reading this, I’m sure- but the feeling of faith- it’s just so so incredible. I’m just overcome with this joy every time I think about it, and I see my prayers answered time and time again. I have this reason to keep pushing, I have this hope when I’m down- but most of all I always know I’m not alone.
my heart aches having crushes isn’t fun anymore when they’re in love with someone when you see them together and every little bit of hope you may have had is diminished as you’re brought back to reality
I will be ok I will keep my head above the water take it one step at a time- i can’t wait to cross that finish line the doubters, those who left me they will see me soar and I wail be okay