by lysander » Tue Aug 14, 2018 11:44 pm
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you miss the things you never knew.
cascading sheets, white, pureโ a cocoon where all sound goes quiet. silence swallowing
all things. left to fade in the fluorescent light of a hospital room. the constant murmur
of machines to your left. the wilting flowers left for days on your right. the occasional
escape, when the nurses would take you outside to feel the sun and the breeze on your
all-too fragile skin. they treat you so carefully, you know they're scared to break you. but
you can't be broken so easily. this, you know, but no one else.
this is all you knew. and you're sick of it.
in the recesses of your mind you keep a little box, tucked away in a corner you've long
forgotten about. inside, glimmers of a distant past you can no longer salvage through the
passage of time. the pieces insideโ faded memories. a mother no longer present. the man
you owe so much to yet resent all the same. and another boyโ one you'd spend your noons
with on that playground you used to love. once upon a time it used to hurt so terriblyโ more
than the pain in your bones trying to bend and break you. more than the treatments and the
bouts of nausea and the pills and the therapy. but now, as with most things, you take them
in stride. one step at a time. inch by inch.
these are not the things you miss.
you don't think about the past. the people passing by. growing up and growing old as you
stagnate in your linen cot. what you miss is the unknown.
cascading falls. excitement. the thrill of living and let living and in the face of fear itself,
you want to shout and scream and spit in its faceโ hell-bent child of chaos! and in your
wake you will leave no stone unturned, no path unwalked, because your body be damned
if anyone thinks it'll keep you from taking what is yoursโ
โfor the world is your oyster, and you miss it dearly.
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lysander on Fri Aug 24, 2018 4:08 pm, edited 1 time in total.