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res ommmg yesss
𝔽𝕚𝕣𝕤𝕥 𝕃𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝔽𝕚𝕣𝕤𝕥 ℍ𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕓𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕜
Hiro was once a very ignorant and vulnerable Kalon. The second he felt a twinge of love in his heart for another, that he thought was returned, he gave his heart to the recipient. When he had started dating Phoenix he felt as if he were on cloud nine, rejoicing in the feeling of being fully, and completely loved by another. Hiro looked to him whenever he needed to be cheered up, sharing laughs and seemingly priceless memories to be looked back upon with a smile on his face years from then. Hiro acted like how all first-time lovers did, as if nothing could stop him, as if he'd found his one and only. Sadly, like it did to all the others, reality came crashing down upon his fantasy.
Hiro had come down from the dopamine-fueled first months of dating, and afterward, more often than not, found himself quarreling with Phoenix for seemingly the smallest things. Small habits of his that annoyed him, not telling Phoenix where he had left to go, and things of the like.
Hiro was desperate to make the relationship work. He gave Phoenix everything he wanted, he changed himself, he stopped hanging out with certain friends and family that Phoenix did not like. For a time this had worked. It seemed as if things had gone back to the way they were before, but they hadn't. Hiro felt empty and hollow on the inside. His mouth smiled, but his eyes did not. This was not the happiness he had felt with Phoenix before. He wasn't happy with him, and he had pushed those that had cared about him away. He had never felt more alone, but he stayed in the relationship yearning to make it work. It never did.
After some time the edited version of Hiro had still not been enough to Phoenix. The fighting had come back, but worse. One day, like a storm rolling over the Garden of Eden, everything had fallen apart. Hiro had tried to confront Phoenix about his true feelings, and he just snapped. Phoenix had blamed Hiro for his own unhappiness, and left in a fit of rage that had left Hiro's belongings, and Hiro himself, in shambles.
Phoenix had taken his heart within his paws and crushed it. Hiro had tried too hard to make him happy. Hiro had tried too hard to make himself happy. In the end it was all for nothing. He'd left Hiro with a feeling of emptiness, but not for him leaving, for how Hiro had been stupid enough to try and change himself and push others away for the sake of one person he hadn't even known for all that long. All he was left with to show for it was being, and feeling, completely alone.
From then on Hiro had vowed never to fall in love. He'd never let another have control over him and the ability to manipulate him to their liking. Had he known before, had he been smarter, he would have walked away from the stranger that was destined to only bring him down. Regrettably, then his mind had been clouded over by the deadly fog of love and emotional vulnerability. Never again would he let that happen to himself.
𝕃𝕚𝕗𝕖 𝕒𝕥 𝕌𝕟𝕚𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕚𝕥𝕪
Hiro is a struggling university student who is more or less running from his past. His daily routine consists of him waking up, going to his classes, going back to his dorm, studying the entire afternoon, and going to sleep. Socialization is kept to a minimum of occasionally chatting with the one Kalon he'd been able to befriend on campus.
Hiro hasn't even bothered with contacting any of his friends and family back home. He left without notice and didn't want anyone to know or care, but that doesn't mean he doesn't get about a dozen calls and texts a day. Hiro just isn't ready to face the reality he left behind back home, which is partly why he throws himself so whole-heartedly into his studies.
Even so, he seems to be a complete mess. Hiro had wanted to go to university to gain some control over his life, to be able to finally make some of his own decisions after putting others before himself for so long, but he hasn't been doing a lot of that. He can't even decide what he wants to major in. The decision has only left him even more clueless in his already lost state of mind.
The one thing Hiro clings to hold onto now is being himself, but he doesn't even know who he is anymore. Pretending to be someone you're clearly not can make you forget who you really were in the first place. University is his one hope to take back his life, to find himself, and leave the past behind him. The question is, can he do that on his own? His friend seems to think otherwise and will not stop pestering him about it. Hiro can only hope that they give it up sooner rather than later.
Just because he is alone does not mean he's lonely.
ℂ𝕠𝕟𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕒 𝔽𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕟𝕕
"For the last time, I said no!"
"Why must you always get like this, Hiro?"
"Maybe because I have better things to worry about than getting a date? Like, oh I don't know, passing university?"
"Oh, but Hiro, I met this great guy, you'd love him. If you'd just agree to meet up with him, I know you'd get along."
"What about no don't you understand? Besides, I don't want to date at all, let alone blind date. So yeah, no thanks."
"You know I hate seeing you like this, and doing this."
"Like what? Doing what?"
"Being alone, and denying your own loneliness! For goodness sake, Hiro, your roommate is pretending you don't exist and you're returning the favor. Do you even talk to anyone other than me?"
"I'm not lonely, how many times do I have to tell you?"
"Why must you lie to me, Hiro?"
"I'm not lying."
"Oh yeah, well then when's the last time you've talked to your family?"
"What does that have to do with anything?"
"I'll take that as you haven't talked to them at all since arriving here. This is why I'm worried. You shut yourself in your dorm and study all afternoon without any human interaction. You have to get out and socialize, do something! Going on a date would be good for you."
"And realizing that I don't date would be good for the both of us. Give it up, this is a battle you're just not winning."
"Fine, reject the date, I don't care at this point, but you're meeting this guy even if I have to drag you to him!"
"Good luck with that."
"I have ways, Hiro. Just you wait, you're going to meet him and love him whether you like it or not."
"We'll see about that."
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