have you ever lost a faimly menber

[Saphira344]

to mods i didnt know where to put this


i have i lost my father in 2009 to suicied i still miss him but ill never forget how my mum told me i was very yonge and so that iam not saying my real name saphiras when my name is menched

i got up we where at a frends houce at the time all i had was a small dog toy.i was happy i didnt know how my mood was going to change so quickly.mum saw me" saphira"she called"sit here please""ok i said thinking i was in truble."saphira did you understand anything that we where talking about last night"mum asked"no i was out of it "i replyed starting to worry"your dads dead"mum said blantly.it took a few second to sink in but when it did i felt like my whole world had falen like a hole had opend and i had fallen in"no"i wisped i had nothing to cuddle, nothing to hug, none of my soft toys.but then star our frends golden retrever walked in i stumbled over to her and gave her a hug my tears creaping through her fur as i cryed

[Actually.A.Herondale]

my dad died last year, on December 28, of T-cell Lymphoma that he got from breathing in the toxic fumes in Iraq, because he was in the Army. i'm only *a number between 8 and 99*, and this the first year knowing he won't be coming home. i was he died, on the same i was first thrown off a horse, and i think that the horse, Missy, KNEW what happened, and was preparing me for it, even if that sounds stupid. horses know...because she behaved for me from then on, until i moved. we moved into a new house in New York on his birthday, July 4.

[Saphira344]

so sad

[Actually.A.Herondale]

mm hmm.

[Saphira344]

but its a tad crepy that we where both round the same age when we lost out dads

[E.urka]

You guys are going to get in trouble for posting your ages.
I got a warning level for it.
Im not trying to rat you out
Im just letting you know.
I'd change it befor you get caught

[Saphira344]

oh sorry

[Actually.A.Herondale]

woops