jacketgirl wrote:How are you guys (and gals) liking General Conference? What's your favorite talk so far? My favorite is the one by President Packer. He's my favorite apostle. :]
President Packer was a hoot <3 Isn't he the one with the Young Raven and Old Raven Poem? I want to hear that again. xD
Other than that, I get really bored at General Conference. I listen to one or two of the talks, remember them as best as I can for the 'quiz' my mother gives me at the end, and I just can't stand it anymore. I either fall asleep or find something to fumble with (like a rubix cube or a ds). I just can't sit that long. Dx And I feel horrible because I'm not that in tune to the spirit, and I know I should listen for the sake of my testimony, and I try, but it's hard. It's just so.. Boring ;-;
I got a favor to ask a few of you. I've been in the LDS church my whole life. Born into it, baptized into it when I was 8, ect. ect. But... I don't know anymore. There is no way I'll leave this church, I was grown into it, it's all I've ever known. But... I'm not sure though if it's is true. I know I want to believe. I very much want to. My very fiber wants to go into reading the scriptures and knowing without a doubt that they are true. I want to know that there is life after death, and that I can reach the Celestial Kingdom. But I can't tell if I really truly believe, or if I'm just saying I do. How can you tell? I mean, only I can be the judge of that, and I truly don't know. I truly want to know though. ;-; I've been trying to read the scriptures every night, and I need to work on praying to my Heavenly Father.
I know I've felt the spirit before. But only so few times, and far between. How can I know those were the spirit? It... It's hard. I barely remember any spirit moments. My mom and dad were married in the temple, but my dad fell short afterwards. He left the church and became angry at it. So our household isn't really a 'household of faith'. All my siblings are LDS, but my dad... It makes a big difference. Just that one family member in the house changes our household of faith. Once he turns on the T.V., we have to be careful and maybe sometimes leave the room. If he is angry, we keep our distance and cover our ears. That might be one of the causes of my disbelief, but there is no one to blame but myself on this.
I know I'm not alone, and I want to see if some of you can help me? Send me links to good talks by the Prophet maybe? Share experiences? Anything that you think would help, I would really really be grateful. Because... I want to believe.
... Thanks.
~ Angel