Write a Letter You Cannot Send

[Umbrellas]

dear internet,
I just wish I could have online friends like I used to.
I feel really alone.
I used to be liked, but now I have no one to talk to.
The internet used to save me, but it doesn't anymore.
I don't know what to do.
tq

[sweet tea]

dear one who claims to have no internet friends,

just join different threads and PM them about the thread and slowly transform the thread topic into a real conversation... lol, what i do sometimes... #foreveralone

-vector





dear dad,

i do not appreciate you telling me to clean out the 'gibblets' in a chicken at 2:30. you told me that the 'gibblets' were in a package... so, when i took the chicken out the package, i saw that there were these things in the chicken... i thought 'gibblets' were seasoning or something. until i rinsed out the chicken and this whole pile of guts come out of the chicken's open butt and plop on the sink. and of course, it gets stuck in the rack that we have in the sink... good thing i didn't eat breakfast or lunch, or all of the food would be on the floor right now... I AM NEVER GOING TO BE A COOK. -.-

your daughter,
{insert real name here}

[Monotone]

Dear ___,
I'm getting extremely annoyed by you.
You constantly sing.
You sing EVERYTHING you do.
You sing commercials.
You sing songs on the radio.
Sometimes I just want to listen and hum along.
You have a great voice, sure, but at this point...
Your voice is grating against my eardrums and making me go mad!
Not only that, but you don't text me for a month.
I texted you a couple of times with no response.
Out of the blue, there you are, saying we haven't talked in a while.
I send a response and get nothing!
Not only that, but your opinions are really ticking me off.
You let your religion and your beliefs dictate your life and actions.
And your constant mood swings?
Don't even get me started on those.
I've always been there for you, but now, I'm giving up.
You're like a rollercoaster that I've gone on ten times.
After so many times, it starts to make you sick.
Sincerely,
A Person too Chicken to Tell You This

[inadequate]

{ Uhm, I hope you don't mind me writing a letter to my dad since he gets really mad when I say this in person... }

Dear Dad,

I know I've told you this so many times and you're just plain tired of hearing it, but, I really wish you would stop smoking. From the day I was told smoking could kill in preschool, I've been watching you with worried eyes and I can't stand seeing you waste all your money on cigarette packs. For a few years, I gave you small hints that I really wanted you to stop. Like: Mowing over a pack of cigs that you dropped, hiding them in the shed, pouring them down the garbage disposal, forcing them through a paper shredder, and many more. Once I saw you just weren't getting the idea, I flat out told you: "Dad, you need to stop smoking." Of course you thought I didn't understand since I was eleven years old at the time, but the more I told you to stop, the more you got annoyed. You started lying to me and telling me the cigarette butts on the ground were your friends' when I knew that no one had been over to your house.

Dad, when I finally just asked you with tears welling in my eyes to please stop smoking cigarettes, you actually put them down and I was so happy. You were cranky each day you didn't have one but I was soooo happy that you quit! I remember that we went to an outdoor movie in the Eugene park for a father-daughter night since my twin brother was at our mom's house and you stood up and spoke to me in a whisper: "I'll be right back ______. I'm gonna go have a smoke." I swear I survived a major heartbreak after you said those words and I cried the rest of the movie. You remember that, too, don't you?

Dad, I love you so much and you're such a big part of my life. My brother and I and so many others need you but when you put a cigarette in your mouth, it's almost like you don't care. I bet you've noticed that I've gone back to only giving you hints like: "Dad, your car smells..." But when you just get all angry, I feel like by trying to save your life, I've been pushing my own father away.

Dad, please stop smoking....

Love, your daughter, ______.

[Umbrellas]

Dear Member,

I gifted you a VR rat, and you come rant about it on the Trade Rant thread?
Wow, I feel so appreciated.

<3TQ

[Forever is Now]

Dear...
Remember how we sat out by the pool and spoke for hours after the rest of the group went to bed. But said goodbye so easily. The next morning I was on a plane back home. I told you things I have never told anyone before. That time we first started to talk? And by the way I totally beat yoyuin that fight . I miss the whole group. My friend had left to go back to norway that same day I started to talk to you, when I started to fit in. I realise it has been weeks since I saw you. And to be fair it was only for two days. Was it really that short? Only two days? It felt longer. You told me about when you were impressing a girl and handspringed into a lampost or something like that. I laughed so hard. I felt like I had known you for ages. It was my last night, and you said goodbye like we would meet again. We wont. You live in Norway, I live in britain and we met in spain. I dont even have your last name.

I guess this is my way of saying it properly. And thank you for likeing me just as I really am.

Bye, and always remember forever alone

Scottish girl xx

[thisaccountisempty]

Dearest Other Girl on the Other Site,

PLEASE KINDLY SHUT THE FREAK UP.
SRSLY.
I DON'T WANT YOU WHINING AND SAYING EVERY FIVE SECONDS ON HOW YOU'RE GOING TO TAKE YOUR OWN LIFE BECAUSE ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS "HATES" YOU.
THAT IS SRS CHIZZ.

With Love and Kisses,
Chiaroscuro~

And I apologize about the caps, but just ugh some people.

[undertaker.]

Dear Mr. V,

It's the third day of school. Why give us the homework? And I know I'm in advanced classes and everything, but I'm still only in eighth grade. Did you have to give my class text books meant for freshmans? It took me an hour to complete forty questions.

Love,
Your Student

[~ShadowsInTheNight~]

Dear Sister I hate,

I hate you. Seriously. Why can't you just stay at your own house with your own husband instead of coming over every week and trying to boss me around and yell at me? And I know you stole my favorite clothes. You know nothing of what goes on in my life so don't try to act like you can dictate everything I think. It won't happen. Not in a million years. I'm not the stupid goody goody girl everyone wants me to be. Honestly. If you go out and get drunk everyone just says you're going through a tough time, but if I want to sneak out at night you threaten to kill me? No. Everyone thinks you're such a good person but that's far from the truth. No offense, but I hope you get hit by a truck.

Love, your little sister.

[tawnypelt3]

Dear B,
I'm sorry. I can't even say how sorry I am, to have simply abandoned you. You got too close, and that's the one thing I am weakest with. I can't trust anyone. I have so few people I have any trust at all in, and you just couldn't become one of them because I don't know you in real life. That's the only reason, there's nothing about you, yourself that would make me do this. It's just... I can't trust anyone. I can't get too close, because I always end up getting burned. I put too much faith in someone, have too much loyalty to them, and they always let me down. Hard. It always comes as a complete surprise to me. I do not expect at all to be stabbed in the back. That's the only reason I have done what I have done. I'm not excusing what I did, I'm just offering up a little explanation as to why I did it, maybe give you just the tiniest bit of closure. I'm sorry. I could say it a thousand times and still not be done saying it, because this is normally the sort of thing I hate most, and now I've done it. I am a horrible person. Sometimes I wonder if you see me posting on the forums and you wonder why, if I look so happy and normal, I don't continue to talk to you. First of all, I'm not happy, and I'm certainly not normal. Wearing a mask has become second nature to me, when it comes to dealing with other people, to interacting with them, which brings me to my second point. I'm not at all normal. I'm extremely introverted, and not a whole lot of people are, so I don't think like most people, especially people who post on the forums. What seems perfectly sensible to me sometimes just confuses others, and I can't really explain beyond that without typing an essay for you, so there's a little explanation of that. Also, my life history is really messed up, which has made me really messed up, if the "can't trust anyone" bit didn't make that abundantly obvious. Overall, I'm just one big, introverted, messed up, ball of bitter. So I don't always make sense. If what I've done hasn't made sense, please just know that I have a reason to have done what I have done, whether or not it actually makes sense. It's all I thought I could do. I'm sorry. u-u

Much love, despite my actions,
Tawny





Dear certain CS members,
I'm sorry that I couldn't make myself clear when I said what I did. I thought I did a pretty good job of explaining myself, but apparently you still didn't get it, though it certainly didn't help that you all decided to jump on me, completely immersed in "attack mode" and conveniently ignoring/disregarding my every other attempt to explain my actions. Because yes, there was a point to what I said. I was talking about me, not those other people. I'm sorry you were all too dense to realize it, but then again, I am still an introvert, so maybe none of you are and just couldn't understand here I was going when I said what I did. My being "messed up" is also a completely legitimate reason. But in the future, if and/or when I decide to say something close to that again, I would very much appreciate you all actually reading everything I say, rather than reading only a part of it and taking it completely out of context. Obviously, I am feeling very defensive right now, but I still have a clear enough head to apologize to those who actually deserve one, namely, the people I actually did mention, NOT the rest of you buggers.

I'm sorry to those of you who I actually mentioned, I really am. You all took what I had to say out of context, as well, or simply just didn't get what I was saying. which isn't entirely your fault. Part of it's your fault, but mostly it's mine, for being not clear enough with my words. I got what I was saying perfectly well, but I can see why some people wouldn't get it (well, not really, it's pretty much a case of not reading everything I wrote). But still, I can see why your feelings might be hurt, merely on the principle of the thing, so I am indeed very sorry. I'm not sorry for having done it, because it was my right to do so, but I'm sorry that you didn't get what I was saying. It could have really hurt your feelings, as you were so nice to me, and now I have to do massive damage control. I refuse to take all the responsibility for this, however. I feel that if people had actually read my second post, explaining what I really meant in my first post, and not simply exploded with emotion, a lot of this could have been avoided. Maybe I'm wrong, but I don't really know. Just... I'm sorry you had to see that. I won't say it was wrong of me to do what I did, but apparently I didn't go about it with clear enough words, and so I got burned for it, and you did too, in a way.

I'm sorry,
Tawny