by Panic! » Sun Feb 12, 2012 3:44 am
Old Friend,
You haven't really been involved with me lately, and that's completely fine. You and I both know you have better things to do. And while I know you will probably never read this message, or know who exactly it is to, that is fine as well. I'm just the random girl who comforted you when you needed her, and then moved on. And I don't mind that either, because so many people have done it to me, I've gotten used to be stepped on. I like helping people. So if you never talk to be again, that is fine. Go on with your new relationship, and enjoy it too, because then if you don't, you will sitting here like me with a handful of regrets and wishes. If you love them, hold on to them, don't make the same mistakes as me. If you don't end up texting or messaging me that's fine too. I don't really care anymore, because I have now learned not to get my hopes up. You probably wouldn't care about what I had to say either, though talking is something I have been craving for a while. I just sit quietly in class, playing out the future in different ways, not speaking to anyone, that's what I've been doing most of the time. I still have Katie, she's been a real doll ever since that whole drama, and she is a true friend.
If you really want to know what's going on with me, don't ask me because I probably will lie to you. Check out my tumblr, or hey, you can even make one. Tumblr is one of the best choices I have made, you can rant on it, find funny pictures, or just express yourself without being judged. And that kids in school wont be able to find you in less you tell them your URL. If you still feel down or sad, tumblr is definitely something to make. But yes, check mine out because I express a lot of my feelings on it. Then message me, I don't care how. Talk to me, just one last message even if it is saying goodbye. I just want to know so I don't have to hold on anymore, because I am getting pretty warn down on holding onto something that might not even want me there anymore. I don't even know if you even stalk my posts like I do to yours when I am remembering. Sometimes I wish you went on it more, so you could see these messages I write to you, though you probably never know they were to you. Just a message in my phone, on my tumblr, or even in the PM's here, and I'll leave you alone, stop posting things like this to you, because a lot of these were to you...
Love, Rebecca
take pride in what is sure to die.