by Shazinga » Mon Apr 25, 2011 6:53 pm
I confess that I like my best guy friend, who happens to have a girlfriend and lives 6 hours away.
I confess that I have a hard time connecting with people emotionally, and knowing other people can do it so quickly hurts me. I confess that I try to force emotions I know I should be feeling. ((Example: Favorite character dies in a movie, I didn't used to bat an eye. Now that I'm used to forcing the emotion, I gasp or tear up.))
I confess that I have a hard time opening up to people about things that are upsetting me. It seems pointless and I feel like I'm just being a whiner, no matter how bad I feel.
I confess that when I was 10/11 I was somewhat suicidal. I wanted to die so bad, I had nobody to talk to until I met you. You opened me back up to a world I didn't want to be in anymore, you gave me something to look forward to in the future. You helped get me back up without realizing it, and I thank you.
I confess that I'm not really arrogant or confident. I fake it all so that nobody knows how much I hate the way I look or am. I hate being so innocent, I hate my chubby cheeks, I hate my big legs and my muffin top. I hate how pale my skin is and I hate my hair color. I hate looking so young.
I confess that I need time away from my closest friends, it's not them, it's me. It's how I am, how I've always been, and possibly how I'll always be.
I confess that there's something wrong with my insides and I'm afraid to go to the doctors to find out what it is. I've self-diagnosed it to be IBS but I'm not sure anymore.. It's what I hate most about myself. It's painful 3 weeks out of a month, and I only go once a month. A few days ago I went and it was so painful that I was sobbing the entire time...
Peter McWilliams wrote:"It is a risk to love.
What if it doesn't work out?
Ah, but what if it does."
Jennifer Donnelly wrote:"Meet me where the sky touches the sea.
Wait for me where the world begins."
Roleplays I've joined: None at the moment! Life leaves me busy nowadays, but thank you to everyone I've ever roleplayed with in the past!