TheComfortCorner | V.10

[Jarex]

I wonder if you'd still like me so much if you knew my secret

[raezel]

x

[slashstreet]

allergies.. i geniunely cannot stop sneezing and it doesnt help im cleaning off my dusty book shelves. cleaning is so tricky im just so tired.. i just wanna figure out how to get it done quickly and with it looking nice!!!

[venus_of_the_sky]

During the pandemic, I really turned to the internet to make friends and have a social life. There are a couple people that I stayed fairly close to throughout the years. Some I talked to daily. Over the past couple of weeks though, there is one person who I was close to but we slowly stopped talking daily, even went some weeks without talking. I find out yesterday that they removed me. I had a chance to question them this morning, and all they really said was "i want to remove my internet friends." Of course I am sad about it but there is not much I can do. We have run into some problems in the past with them ghosting me and then apologizing and talking to me again. But I simply cannot keep enduring this friendship with someone, so I am removing them from my side of social media.

There are also a couple other instances this month plus the addition of my irl friends that I am having some conflict with, which is just overall making me feel burnt out and sad. However, i have been reconnecting with my art and joined some new communities. I hope to make some new friends through my art and other games I play daily, such as roblox.

Life has been rough this month. There has been some really good times but also some really rough ones. Just gotta keep moving forward and out my energy into people that are there for me and make some art

[Weepy]

Interesting

[nobxdy]

some concerning things are happening in my family right now, and i don't really know what to do. my dad has some things going on and we really don't know how much time he has left. there's also more.. dark.. things related to that but im not going to get into it. i can't wrap my head around it.

[slashstreet]

guys dont ever let me pull pranks even if its really innocent i feel so horrible afterwards

[arabella !!]

please, give me peace of mind.

[Serious.]

(I will always love the Comfort Corner. Thank you for giving me the space to write this.)

Today I've been an utter mess. Went from being all giddy in the morning to completely crashing by the end of it. Freaking out internally, snapping at people without meaning to, losing the ability to calm down or change the channel that my thoughts were stuck on. My brain turned into a pile of dissociative mush, my stomach twisted into figurative knots that also affected me physically, my appetite disappeared and I still have little desire to drink water or eat food. And now I'm flat-out EXHAUSTED after dealing with this roller coaster of emotions all day.

All of that because I have a crush on a guy. Like genuinely, that's the only thing that caused this.

I honestly think this is an affect of being autistic. My emotions are cranked up by 500% until I literally have no idea how to handle them. I have trouble interpreting social interactions, so I overthink every one of them. Everything is a big deal and it ruins the fun of being infatuated with a cute guy.

Today was A Day. But I got through it and I learned more about myself. Now I can rest and recover, and then I'll figure out my next steps.

[_SmollJellyfish_]

I'm a bad friend, I'm a bad friend
I can't stand these negative thoughts anymore, they make me seem like a horrible person. Evidently I am, why do I always have to think so negatively? Why do I get upset over such irrelevant things? Are you hiding something from me, why don't you talk? Why do I have to always tell you everything and I have this sense that you hide secrets from me, why do I have to think like this? It's my fault, I'm sorry I don't know what's wrong with me