*Nag-post*
I'm feeling rather depressed today. I don't know why, I feel like I'm on the edge of falling down in a sea of lost hopes and dreams. Because I get bullied quite a bit, nobody talks to me, including boys. Infact, mostly I am just made fun of. In my last post I said that my friends say that I'm beautiful, but I just can't believe them anymore. I've heard how ugly I am more than fifty times today from different people, that what the other five think just can't really get to me anymore.
Listening to these love songs like "Just the way you are" and "She's always a woman" just remind me of what I don't have. Of what I've never had. Of what I thought I have had, but.. You know, they acted so real, but they just faked it all.
I used to believe what they said, how they said that I look great and that I would find the right guy and stuff. Well, today, I give up. I can't impress anybody, I can't even be happy with myself. Before I can learn to love others, I must love myself. And it's just not going to happen. Not today, not tomorrow, not any day. I, quit, trying, this.











