TheComfortCorner | V.9

[Flicka]

After finding out he cheated on me, I've been forced to really feel my emotions to really go over everything for therapeutic purposes and make some choices. I have to write this letter thing to him, like an open letter. It broke me a lot, but made me realize that there was no chance that they were old pictures and quite possibly he had done this before to someone else. My will to eat, hasn't returned yet but i'm finally eating something. I'm not back to sleeping like normal but I can say that this doesn't hurt anywhere near as bad as the first time this happened. So I don't think it'll negatively effect my health. But it is for sure a broken heart. But I can take solace that now it's out there, if there are any other women. I know I didn't deserve it, this time I don't blame myself as I did in my youth. It was entirely him and his immaturity.

In time, I will be fine but right now I don't like being alone. I feel raw and vulnerable, but I don't want to die because bad things keep happening to me. This world is beautiful even though it is cruel, and I wont let anyone take that away from me again. I'm going to start going for walks, and runs. I'm going to cut or thin my hair and dye it. I'm gonna keep working on bettering myself, for myself. I'm going to keep aiming for a good job I actually enjoy, I'm going to keep aiming for a house, I'm going to keep helping animals and hurt people like me.

[derpy!]

i really need a hug

[bubbaberriboo]

i really feel like there are things i need to say. i keep replaying memories in my head, but with different endings or outcomes. i keep wondering 'what if i did this or that instead'. i wonder how my life would be if things didn't turn out the way they did. i wonder why i did the things i did. i imagine fake conversations in my head where i tell people how i really feel. and i cry. i cry over fake conversations.
it's not even about how i feel, it's how i've made others feel. i feel like i owe other people closure or explanations. it's so stupid that i'm worried that the person who hurt me so badly is hurt over what he did to me. why do i want to apologize to him or explain that he still helped me in many ways. why do i feel like i need to explain to him that it wasn't all bad and he just needed to give me space or time. why do i still think we can be friends again and everything will go back to 'normal' when 'normal' never existed between us. we had a special bond that i have NEVER had with anyone else. at the same time i'm afraid to have that type of relationship again. i trusted him with everything i had, but he broke that trust so many times and i kept going back because i thought 'this time will be different'. it rarely ever was and he convinced me i was the problem. he convinced me i didn't need anyone else but him. why am i still upset over thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiisssssssssssssssssssssssss

i don't think i will ever trust the same again unless i forgive him. i want to so badly. but i don't know how.

[onion]

i miss my girlfriend so much it hurts

[PROD.]

i don’t know how to break up with him. I need to.. he is just so sweet though. He’s trying his best but I just can’t be in a relationship right now. how

[Meowzerino]

I hate all of them so much. I hate this stupid country. I hate this stupid language. I want to go back home idc that everyone there hates me i just want to get out of here.

[GothFairy]

I feel so lonely. I say that I'm fine like that, but it eats into me now and than. I need a shoulder to lean on

[mcr]

i ❤️ being delusional

[Electronia]

I have a lot of boundaries, a lot of things that make me an annoying friend, I delete or ask for my posts to be deleted and leave communities often. Everywhere I go, I get this sense of panic, like other people's actions reflect onto me or things I can't control determine what kind of person I am.
I don't have a license. I'm in college, but I dont have a job. I'm lonely and afraid, and my friends are typically very, very busy.

I'm afraid.
This past month of,,, five, I haven't been myself.
I dont sleep, my diet is terrible and life is kicking my shins.
There's a lot of stuff I wont talk about here, and my family/friends are supportive and honest, but god life is kicking me in the stomach. I don't know what to d o.
I feel anxious and scared, untrusting and irritable.
I want to scream. I want to scream into the void and hope to god something changes.
Hng.
I'm very tired of this.

[twilispark]

i feel bad constantly using this thread, but i need somewhere to vent and dumping it on my friends makes me feel an insane amount of guilt so.
I am Here Yet Again

we couldn't afford to pay the phone bill this month.
i thought after losing the car, we'd finally have the ability to focus on other bills since there wouldn't be a car payment OR insurance payments. but no, it's still impossible.
it's terrifying to think this is never ending. i don't know what will be next - the water, the power, literally any other bill that gives us what we need to SURVIVE at minimum?

i am terrified, but most of all i am tired. i am so tired.