TheComfortCorner | V.9

[Guest]

This week is all about death and i'm so done.
Monday my teacher's friend died in an accident, yesterday we had to euthanize a dog and his family didn't even come to say goodbye, between yesterday and today one of the cats in our care died (he was between life and death so we kind of expected it, but it still sucks) and today we lost 7 puppies, they were born dead and we managed to bring some of them back for a little while (not even a minute and they were not making any noises or responding, just had a heartbeat and were breathing), but we couldn't save them.
I'm so emotionally exhausted.
I just can't.
I just want to lay down and not exist for a while

[Meowzerino]

I miss her so much, even though I hate who she made me and what she did to us, I loved her more than anything. I can't believe that I was stupid enough to actually trust her. I'm so sorry to everyone she hurt because of me. I didn't know. :(

[rogan]

a wow wow
i feel like ass

[saw]

i know you dont care about me as much as i do. but can you at least try. why do i bother with relationships maybe im just better off single for the rest of my life.

[vi‎ ‎]

x

[cainhurst]

i can't even mention what the dream was about, but. it was about utterly abhorrent things. not me doing them, which in my mind makes it at least a tiny bit better. because screw finding joy in doing terrible things to others, couldn't be me thankfully. but every normal person would be utterly disgusted and disturbed by the dream regardless,,, and yet i woke up and was disappointed that i couldn't stay dreaming for longer. and. it really worries me. because what the hell does that say about the state of my brain? about who i am as a person and what i think of myself? what i think i truly deserve? has the idea that i'm undeserving of basic human kindness, that my feelings and thoughts and bodily autonomy don't matter, really been so deeply ingrained into me? have i really been conditioned into perceiving such things as pleasant? do i really believe that it's alright for those things to happen to me, and only me? or was it tied to the fact my dream made me male without stopping to question the change once, and that was comforting enough to make the entire dream feel pleasant in an odd kind of way?

i despise my brain

[cainhurst]

accidental double post lmao sorry

[malkav,]

cw for hospitals and emetophobia! keep yourselves safe <3


i'm at my wits end with my medical bills honestly.this is going to be rambley and incoherent, cause i'm all alone right now and in a lot of distress ;; but i don't particularly expect many people to read haha. i just need to scream at something

the first time i made an appointment for something in YEARS was last august, when i started having some serious stomach issues that i needed addressed. i made the appointment under the belief that i was covered by my parents' insurance, but it turned out i wasnt, and i wasn't made aware of this until i had a nearly $5k bill in my mailbox. the MINIMUM payment, the absolute lowest theyll go, is $250 a month. who on earth can just pencil in that much extra per month? it's been so on and off trying to get financial assistance with this bill, every time i send the paperwork needed i just get told to send more. its been so long, just deny me or don't!

and recently i went to the er because it was very late, so i couldn't go to my normal provider, and i was going through severe nausea. like, 4am to 11pm was a blur of throwing up and nausea. not the most emergent thing, sure, but it had been over 24 hours since i'd been able to sleep and i knew i wasn't going to be able to deal with another 12 hours of that. and anytime lightheadedness gets thrown into the mix, i know it needs to get checked out asap. i'd been approved for my own insurance awhile ago, so i should have been fully covered! but now i might have a $600 bill because my insurance isn't covering the entirety of the services! this scare is making me want to cancel all the appointments i've set in place, because i don't trust how much my insurance covers and how much it doesn't anymore. these appointments are so important, like my dental care and my mental health care, but i don't make much money right now and can't afford more surprise bills. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

[scxr]

i haven’t left my bed in three days. i feel like my brain is starting to grow mold but i have no motivation to help myself. and i have no one to turn to.

[Keith-Kogane]

I am, yet again, up after 2 AM freaking out over my cat and not knowing what's wrong. I'm getting ready to take her to the ER vet here and I'm so tired. Crying is exhausting.