TheComfortCorner | V.9

[scxr]

food is slowly becoming my worst enemy

[viles]

• idk i think i'm just making it up but also like i think im a bad person bc like i'm thinking of leaving and not saying anything and cutting them out of my life but the only thing that is stopping me is my reliance on their money. like,, i'm literally just using them for a place to live and phone service and like,, various other financial burdens that i don't have the income to deal with right now like,,, i wish i could support myself but also no i don't bc like the idea of getting a job sounds horrific???? like talking to people??? in uncomfortable clothes??? in a loud environment???? um no thank you but i cant just live here forever but i dont know what else to do my therapist wants me to apply to that group home so i had her help me and she's sending the application out or already has sent it out and im so anxious i want to curl up in a ball and cry except i dont bc if i did i would just do that i havent showered in weeks im so tired but i cant sleep i just dont want to be awake anymore can someone knock me unconscious so i dont have to think

[downer]

i cant do anything right, i cant even draw properly, what;s the point anymroe

[Lemon Tea Rain]

Oh, goodie, I'm rapidly approaching yet another pit of health issues. I don't know why I'm even surprised by this anymore.

[rabidcoyote]

Wow I am Not good. My funds are absolutely sinking, I can't afford to take care of my health and my dog still needs an amputation.

[pictochat]

i just blocked someone i was close to. i didnt want it to come to this but i just cant do this anymore. i cant risk my safety just to please someone. i dont like them. i never liked them. i just cant say no

[dearhelios]

plurality is a lot and i am worried for our partner system.

our partner system is in a bad situation. we all feel guilty because we can't get them out now, but our hearts sink every moment we can't do more. mom offered them a place to stay, here with us. everyone is so happy that mom is so supportive, but at the same time, we have so many fears and paranoias. we hate seeing our friends, our partners, people we consider family treated so horribly every day. we just want to help. we can't do a lot, and it's not their fault. we are getting them out asap and somehow we feel like we aren't enough, even if they never implied that.

we keep spliting and old alters keep waking up. we were at 5 sometime in november. now we're at 48. we've never reached this before. i don't know what to do, i feel like a bad host. i feel hopeless. i hate having did and i love my headmates. it's a hard duality, great moments with headmates and horrible moments with my dissociation and other symptoms. they suffer with they same did symptoms and issues i do, and they are all amazing people, but i hate this disorder so bad for the daily struggle. my headmates, my partner and our partner system make it so much easier, but i am so overwhelmed. after we got our ged, we feel confused and scared for the future.

i barely talk to my friends, besides our partner system, my partner and our close friend. i am lonely, we all are. we use discord so often and yet we barely talk to anyone on it. we need more friends, not just someone to listen, but either more systems who could relate to us or more singlets that won't think we are weird for all our 'strange' introjects and our big web of relationships and whatnot. i want a friend to talk about our collective interests to and play gachas with. i want to feel better with myself. i want to help our partner system more. i want to feel like i'm enough. i just want to be a good host and a good person.

i'm sorry for the big rant, thank you for listening.

[coffin]

something happened last night that changed my entire view of my childhood and relationships with my family (both of which already werent good!) i couldnt even get the confidence to tell more than one of my friends. i want to book it and move across the country so bad. i dont want to see any of these people ever again lol

[SurgeFire]

I'm so incredibly numb and disconnected. Holy hell, man, I'm going through it.

[taichi]

today sucked. this job is becoming so emotionally draining.
i genuinely didn’t make that mistake and i hate how biased this is.
why should i get blamed for something i didn’t do, just because the boss’s best friend messed up and won’t admit it?

this is eating me up alive. i feel so stressed, angry and upset.
i hate people being mad at me and now people are but without a good reason.