TheComfortCorner | V.9

[viles]

• *insert a rant about making friends here*

[.Vellichor.]

I'm so afraid. The world around me feels like it's caving in and everywhere I turn there's tragedy and loss. I just want people to be happy and I can only do so much to help with that. I hate feeling so useless.

[puppis]

i wish it was easier for me to make friends. i don't know if i'm too intimidating, or awkward, or just not fun or interesting enough to talk to,
but it seems like no matter what i do i can't make any friends and i definitely can't keep them. i miss the days where people would text me first to start a conversation,
and the days where i'd get text messages asking to play games together. i put in so much effort to try and keep in touch with my old high school friends but they never give the same effort back.
i know i shouldn't bother with them anymore but it's hard when sometimes you feel like there's nobody else.

[rogan]

up

[Lepid]

I am so drained and cannot believe my principal and university both asked me to do something illegal (sub by myself as a student teacher when I’m not legally covered).

I also cannot believe that they tried to manipulate, guilt trip, and back me into a corner about something that I legally cannot do. This has happened 2 other times with me, and once with my other student teacher friend as well. They were both unbelievably unprofessional and rude toward me, and treated me like a kid despite being an adult.

I’ve had 3 mental breakdowns so far today and am waiting for an email now to have a meeting with my university regarding the “consequences of my actions” and the “future of my career.” 🤡

[iHolli]

{I'm so...out of it. in general. I don't know what's going on or why but it's like every waking moment I'm in the backseat watching nobody drive and it's been that way for weeks. I can't draw, I can barely talk to anyone, I want to do stuff but there's no...anything. it's all empty. What's even happening anymore...}
{and it's so...so weird seeing everyone else have it together. I mean...I have it together, right? House, rats, job, money, everything I need to get by and then some. I can't complain yk. But I'm not driving. I don't know who is. I don't know if anyone is. And my mom keeps sending me random updates about old friends. This one got married. This one just had a kid. This one just got married too. And she sends me their posts on Facebook and they have it all so together. They're motivated, they're living. And I'm just...left behind, just existing, like I'm meandering through every day with no sense of time. It's been so long since I talked to any of them. Does anyone remember me? Does anyone think of me sometimes like I do all the friends I lost? I've always been left behind, always left out. Now I'm left out of my own head too.}
{And now I guess I'm the last one here too. I get it, I do, I understand why, but I'm...I guess I'm being selfish. It's not as fun to do stuff alone. I really don't want to accept it...}
{I know things are better, they get better all the time, and I'm doing better. So why doesn't it feel like it? Why am I not the one in control, especially now when things are finally better for me? What's wrong with me...?}

.Holli.

[changbin]

do i deserve love?

[Zero_One]

My social anxiety is so much worse than I thought it was. I had tears in my eyes because I get involved in three conversations at the same time, I started crying because it was so embarrassing how hard it was to reply to some simple messages from my own friends. I'm proud of myself for reaching out to them for once, after months of silence from me (S.A.D, fight me), but after seeing how I reacted, I can't help but feel embarrassed and ashamed of myself. I wish I wasn't like this

[lusher]

my mom keeps ranting to me about all of our problems.
thanks for letting me know we're in debt because you can't freaking spend money wisely! thanks for letting me know you wasted MY money on something buying my brother crap and then can't giveme my money back!
i didn't have a lot of money. i didn't, but she stole the little i have. like are you kidding?
stop freaking ranting to me about your problems YOU caused. and stop stealing my freaking money because youre a stupid fiend that cant keep your stupid hands to yourself and waste everyone's money.
this is why my brother always has to send money to help us.
because you are wasting it all. and when I OFFERED YOU money to help with fees, you already say YOU USED IT.
so big old F you.
you stupid thief. get your life back together, stop ranting to your stupid kid about your idiotic choices, and stop stealing from me.

[honeycat;]

what day will it be that this ends.