TheComfortCorner | V.9

[iluka]

I am lonely. There’s no other way to put it, really.

My only friend recently earned a job and works fulltime. When she’s not working, she’s with her boyfriend. Which is understandable and I’m genuinely happy for her, but it kind of pushes me out of her direction. I miss seeing her daily and talking for hours, it feels like our friendship is fading. :(

I’m supposed to be starting a program for this year, but for whatever reason it hasn’t commenced, so I’m stuck at home. Alone and doing the same things 24/7. It doesn’t help that I’m introverted, autistic and socially awkward either. Feels like I’m trapped in my own loop of self-torture.

To add onto all of this, I didn’t connect with my psychologist, so now I see nobody. Furthermore, I have to wait another 2 months before I’m able to see my psychiatrist.

Am I just destined to be a lonely failure? In the media, Autism has made people achieve more, become more. Always more, but somehow Autism makes me less.

Hm, I hate feeling sorry for myself.

[lusher]

hhhhhhh.

[rogan]

i keep messing things up and i dont mean to
im so sorry

[Howl's Moving Castle]

Idk how much longer i can do it for. everything just feels numb and if i stay it hurts me but if i leave he'll be heart broken. I'm sick of the excuses, the cheating, but i still stay cuz i love him and its just getting harder and harder to stay.

[ander]

my house had a gas leak yesterday.
thankfully I discovered it in time and it was taken care of.
but I keep thinking of the what ifs.
I almost took a nap yesterday.
I usually go hours without going in that room.
what if I was away from home? or discovered it too late?
it's useless to worry now, I guess. but realizing how close I came to something terrible is just... ugh.

[bubbaberriboo]

i am losing interest in doing literally anything. there is just no point.

[Captain. A. Stark.]

why wont u talk to me

[Spearow]

ah, feeling some sort of way today. feeling very resolute - to do better. plan better. be nicer to myself. drop the people not treating me well. need to put my foot down, close my heart off and take better care of myself. i want to be happy. and I don'y need anyone in my life who is trying to prevent that

[Vine boom sound]

Flustered with everything I wanna do. College, exercise, work, organization for my room, my hobbies, etc. I just don't know where to start, I'd like to travel back to my home state next month/April and go on vacation and travel this summer, but I'm too afraid to ask my parents until it's too late. They can be quite unpredictable when I ask things and talk to them it's so had to converse with them.

[porygon]

(explodes)