TheComfortCorner | V.9

[pthumerian]

disclaimer: if you can read this, none of it is your fault

my fatigue is so bad everything just hurts at this point and my sleep also has no quality, i'm just so tired all the time and dragging myself along and then i'm bombarded with ignorance and have to constantly fight my brutal crippling anxiety while everything already feels like i'm constantly dragging a full grown elephant around

[.vagabond.]

I thought I’d come across a prayer request thread once on here or something to that effect, but I can’t seem to find it anymore so I’m trying out the comfort corner. Objectively life is good, and I’m happy with everything God’s given me, and doing in my life, but I’m having a hard time at the moment and if anyone feels like saying a quick prayer for me that’d be pretty rad. I had covid over the weekend and my symptoms have completely alleviated now but when I took a rapid test at the end of my isolation, it still read positive… and then positive again 36 hours later. Now I’m waiting till tomorrow morning to test again. I have continued to isolate until a test shows me I’m negative, and I’m feeling super down about this dragging on longer than I anticipated and not being able to hang out with my boyfriend and my mom. My boyfriend and I have gone for walks but it’s about -30/-40 degrees celsius out there these days so it’s only for a short time and not the most pleasant in that way. Makes me feel almost a little more lonely afterwards. I’m usually super physically affectionate and it’s weird to go this long without even being able to sit next to someone. Pray that I’ll have a negative result tomorrow and that I’ll have peace in the meantime. <3 Today’s been hard.

[skylasha]

I hate having anxiety so bad that every time I feel the slightest bit off my brain INSISTS that I definitely caught covid. It makes me feel so stupid and delusion even though my therapist told me to not be so self critical.

Struggling with both my illness fears, and imposter syndrome. I always fear that I am not enough, that I am being humored, and that others know that I'm less good than they are and only pretend to like what I create and that they like me. I wish my brain didn't do this because I don't think anyone actually feels like that towards me, but my severe anxiety insists the worst.

But, being disabled and low energy and less capable than other people makes me feel like I'm less overall. That because I am different, I am worthless. I hate those feelings.

I am also currently very frustrated because my cyberstalker has started their bad behavior again unprovoked. Just go away. And stay away. I am tired of healing wounds being re-opened again and again and feeling like I can get nowhere.

[cecro]

life is just there, waiting to kick you in the ass

[raezel]

cw talk of covid

being unmedicated is so hard and ik i only have a few days left until my doctor's appointment, but readjusting back to life with antidepressants again after being off of them for 3 months is so difficult. i'm scared of how that's going to go. i'm ready for basic tasks to not be intimidating and impossible anymore and my emotions to be stable and not automatically go from 0-100 in two seconds at the slightest inconvenience, but it's not going to be an overnight fix and i know i'm going to be impatient and think that it isn't working. not to mention talking to this doc for the first time and having to explain my chronic illnesses and hope i'm believed after a history of having medical professionals doubt the validity of my (previously professionally diagnosed) conditions. also my family back home has covid and there's nothing i can do to fix it and my immunocompromised mom is very ill and wasn't able to be vaccinated and i'm just generally terrified for her sake but i'm 600 miles away so like. what can you do lol

ready for my mental health to be yassified and get back on my zoloft again

[kitty teeth]

So that was it. Just a nice way of telling me to leave you alone.
I don’t have any friends now and the one I had lived 20 hours away.
I’m lonely.
I just want friends to hang out with, girl friends to talk girl stuff about. I just.
I just am tired.
I hate this.

[porygon]

it's 3:00 am, and i'm starting to get sad, i might as well let it all out before i go to bed.

i don't think i will ever be loved. it's not that i'm too ugly, i'm maybe a 4/10, but i just
don't care. i don't apply myself, i'm anxious, awkward. i don't have dreams or goals. but
i love everyone. i just want to be held. to feel safe. to know i'm wanted. y'know who i
love the most? k. he doesn't love me, we're coworkers, friends, and plus, i think he's
straight, but. i get so flustered around him. i hold my breath every time i see him. he's
so funny, and i like his hair. and it's totally weird that i'm fawning over him like this. so
anyways. i still miss lexie. and i'm getting overwhelmed with everything else going on.
how dare i complain, lexie has so much more going on. i guess it just relates to how
lonely i feel. she is, was, whatever, my best friend. i miss her. i miss her. i can't stand
being in this room. i need to go to sleep. and this music is making me sadder. not cool

[bubbaberriboo]

so. someone i haven’t spoken to in like? two years. just decided to show their face by replying to one of my tweets? HUH? now i’m paranoid i’m being stalked.. again. lol
we ended on bad terms. i have no idea what is going on.

[Guest]

And the bad luck streak continues. I'll need another 15 days for my pc to have the possibility to come back. Why? Because they messed up the order and sent the wrong part.
It feels that my life is just going so wrong right now. Literally everything goes wrong. People deceive me, things break, I get sick, my university is a mess, I'm just so tired. I'm ridiculously tired.

[ghostbite]

It hurts so bad. Everything is a complete mess since you left me and I cant handle anything anymore. Its even more fun because since we still talk, I get to see how youre so unbothered or phased by everything. Its like you dont care and everything didnt even bother you. What you did messed me up greatly, one day I hope you do realize how much I did and gave to you..