by Kayara » Thu Dec 02, 2021 2:35 pm
idk how to feel.
like why is this funny to me, it's literally my butt on the line?
I had around,,,3 weeks to start my essay and then I d i d n ' t
just, pickin a prompt, getting some notes from the book, ya know.
Then, I get a week to do an outline and submit it to my teacher and didn't and then still didn't work on it through thanksgiving break and like,, why? Why did I do that? Do I have a death wish, do I like suffering? like,, I have two hours and thirty minutes to submit it and I just have the title, why am I so calm? Why did I goof around for so long, am I that lazy or sumn?
I don't know, I sincerely don't know, but I also know that whatever it is that withheld me is an unacceptable excuse. Like even if my mom wouldn't be really mad at me if she knew, I'm disappointed in myself. My cat ran away so that might be it, but I'm wondering if it's more than that. I seem to be unwilling to do ANYTHING that takes a long time, like, committing to puting a load of laundry to wash because then I'll have to put it away and I don't.. want to? it's not that bad, why can't I just do it? Used to be the same thing with showering. I liked it once I was in there but then next time I would skip them longer than I should because it took too much of my precious time doing nothing.
what the heck
kinda wanna know if anyone else deals with this too. Or any advice to stop.
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Hi, I’m Kay. :3 If you can swallow pills you're cooler than me. I like animals and a couple other things (see interests) and enjoy drawing in Oekaki (no longer only with a mouse but the only program I seem to be a competent artist with is chickenpaint). I usually just draw or maybe lurk to chat with my friend. I would die for Peeta though he would not let me.
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