TheComfortCorner | V.9

[coffin]

my paranoia is getting really bad again right when im out in the world living on my own which is the worstttt i only coped with it before because 1. i was still living with my parents and 2. i was able to think comforting thoughts about me and my ex but i have neither of those things anymore and oh godd i spent like an hour sitting in the bathroom terrified of leaving

on the brightside though my best friend in the whole world got on voicechat with me so i could get out and check to make sure my house was empty and is now sitting on call going to sleep with me so if my paranoia spikes again he can at least be nearby which is,, the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me & honestly helps a whole bunch. i love him more than anything ngl i cant wait to live with him

[bluebudgie]

It's so lonely, seeing everyone with their friends. It reminds me of what I don't have and maybe will never have. I just wish I had someone that really understood me. And while I'm thankful for the friends I do have, they don't know me well. I'm not sure I want them to get to really know me and for us to reach the point where I start letting my defenses down. I have a tendency to destroy the people I touch. I don't want to, but sometimes the wrong words slip out of my mouth. I hate having to be so distant and somewhat unauthentic but if I don't, I'll either hurt them or cause them to leave for good.

[halo]

im about to cry , my mom just shamed me for wanting to wear something that makes me feel comfortable to my friend’s birthday party .
this is the first time she’s seen me wearing a skirt in years n i’m also wearing thigh highs . she apparently doesn’t appreciate either of those , she just had to put in her own judgement and speak her opinion . nothing i do is ever enough . never . i just want to be enough .

[Rindepie]

i hardly have the energy to do anything anymore, my homework is piling up and drawing isnt as fun anymore. roleplaying is a hassle, and talking to people is getting more draining. i gotta keep strong for my friends though, for their safety.

[viles]

• i've forgotten to take medication the past two,,, maybe three days? honestly, idk how long it's been. all i know is that it's stressing me out. i want to take it now, but i usually take it at night and i don't want to mess up my schedule. honestly, i kinda want to stop medication, but right now i feel so freaked out and like,, Upset that it makes me think i should still be on it? like, idk it did make me feel tired and forgetful, i think, but that also could have been school stress. idk idk i just dont want to deal with my life right now,,,

[Lepid]

I feel like the devil’s choking my throat and the pain is insufferable. I wish that it would just end so I could go back to feeling normal again.

[mean&gay]

dad asked me what my plans are for the future (since i said im not going to uni any time soon) and im freaking out. because i have no idea. i have no idea how to be an adult and even if i did, i have no motivation to progress in life. i have no passions. i want to crawl into a hole and sleep forever. maybe i should tell him that.

[idiosyncrasy]

i hate this body i hate it so much

i hate dysphoria

i just want to be pretty

i hate myself

make it stop

[RoxyTBDW]

My brother told me I'm useless and worthless and that nobody cares about me and other worse things. Im stricken and I'm trying not to listen to what he said but it just gives me so much anxiety

[huening kai]

My brother told me I'm useless and worthless and that nobody cares about me and other worse things. Im stricken and I'm trying not to listen to what he said but it just gives me so much anxiety

i'm sorry he said those horrible insults to you.

while i don't know who you are, i definitely know that you're
not useless or worthless, or that nobody cares about you..
because i care.

i understand it may be difficult to ignore those harsh words,
but try to remember that your worth cannot be defined by
another human. the only reason he insulted you was to get
a reaction and to make himself feel good.

try to take deep breathes, listen to some music, or play your
favourite game/s.


my inbox is always open if you need to talk. <3