TheComfortCorner | V.9

[basil!]

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[jointedwishes]

I don't want to bother anyone with my problems but I need to get it out of me,,

Lately I've been feeling so stressed and sometimes I can barely breathe, but I don't want to diagnose myself with anxiety but I don't want to talk to my parents about trying to get me diagnosed so it's all just a mess.

Thanks for coming to my Ted talk

[ghostie✞]

feel like i'm about to fall apart at the seams honestly. theres a million things that seem to be going wrong. it feels genuinely like no one who "loved me" never did and just wanted to take advantage of me. its a horrible feeling to realize that all your most intimate and trusting relationships have all been fake and a waste of time. i've wasted so many of my years dedicated to try and make these jerks and abusers happy and feel good about themselves when i should've been focused on myself. but i don't know how!!! it seems pleasing others is the only thing i know how to do and its usually those who want to use me and when they get bored they dump me. god i hate being single but i hate relationships. will i ever be happy?! will i ever feel normal again?! does love even exist?!

[Fofi:]]

This isnt really about mental health or anything, but I sent a trade to another user, they cancelled with the message “did you even read my rules?” Wich, I do indeed read everybody’s rules. I kept re reading to see what was wrong and I couldn’t place it. Now I just kinda feel dumb. I could have probably missed somthing or mis read a word because of my dyslexia, it’s really inconvenient for me and being on this site, because a lot is based off of reading. I still love this site and most of the people, it’s just those kinds of people who cancel a trade with somthing like “did you even read my rules?” With nothing else explaining their cancel, just kind of annoy me, mostly because I’m fairly new and want to learn more about some of the worths, but the unexplained cancels just clash with it.

[miissingyou]

i hate thinking about you. i know you don't care about me anymore and want to replace me.
even though you lied to me and pretended nothing was wrong. even though you believed a baseless accusation against me. i'm being too forgiving.
ugh.

[natcatjojo]

ughhhhhh my mail in ballot got rejected and now I'm gonna have to go talk to some scary old republican lady probably. Everything is the worst.

[just peachy!]

not a fan of potentially failing one of my classes
and therefore losing most or all of my financial aid
because my completed credits for the semester
will be below full time : )
and then i will have to drop out
because i cant afford to go to school here : )
and i cant help feeling completely helpless
because i didnt even place in these classes
but my advisor recommended them anyways
and neglected to tell me when add/drop was finished
so either i withdraw and lose my aid or fail and lose my aid
luv life : )

[Spearow]

i have a fever and feel like i'm gonna have a mental breakdown. seems like everyone is fighting because of me for no reason like i'm sitting here and hear people screaming about me in another part of the house for doing something that i didn't even do to begin with - but no one bothered to ask me. i feel like crap, i'm anxious I don't want to go to work tonight but i need the hours. trying to find someone to cover for me anyways - i really don't want to go to the doctor for a throat infection and be tested for the stupid virus again. idk what to do. my inhaler is almost empty too so that's fantastic. feeling really lonely too and just everything is making my heart hurt i wish i could turn everything off

[viles]

• my therapist told me that i'm not really living. i agree, but that doesn't make the statement any less hard to hear. i should get over my anxiety and get a job. even if i don't make friends, i could be lonely and have money. i legitimately don't have any more excuses or explanations for my avoidance of work, other than i'm a lazy dumbass who would rather procrastinate and be isolated than actually do anything to improve my life. i took a step and got my permit today, but it's not enough. i'm starting to wonder if the steps i take will ever be enough, if my life will be a constant effort in trying to actually live a good life. maybe that's all life is.
  i went down a rabbit hole there. i should probably just erase this whole rambling post and move on, but instead i'm going to post it and debate for ten minutes as to whether or not i should have done that. sorry to anyone who actually read this.

[pictochat]

all my friends need help. and i do too. we're all struggling all the time. i get asked for help and i do my best even though i'm in a bad place. i feel like i'm not doing enough. i get scared. i cry. i beg. and then they agree to stay. and then it happens all over again. all i want is for all of us to get better. i love them all so much. i hate to see them hurting so badly. i live my life in fear that one of them will leave me.