by tea rose » Mon Oct 26, 2020 12:56 pm
I might've never been okay even though I thought I finally won. I realized I was just so desperate to put things behind me that I subconsciously pretended they didn't exist, and it did work, but obviously not enough. I'm so disappointed. It hurt myself more to convince myself I won when I didn't than it would've hurt to just be honest with myself about my feelings. I don't think winning even exists anymore