TheComfortCorner | V.9

[mars]

actively going into a panic attack at the worst possible time
had to end group early. only 15 minutes until my education session. yikes
and it's all because I got no sleep since I kept having nightmares, which makes me feel sick.
idk man, today just ain't it

[kísmet]

i don’t want to wake up tomorrow
i want it to end already

[breadstick]

im on the verge of tears haha i cant do this anymore

[fika.]

I used to only talk to my then-gf, discarding every single friend I had and now I’m basically left alone besides the family I live with. I hardly ever interact with them though and I get anxious just being around them sometimes. I also don’t really know how to hold a conversation with a Friend type person anymore, how to keep it distant but not pushing them away, since I only ever spoke to my now ex and we spoke very openly and closely about feelings and anxieties and random thoughts, and etc. and it’s uncomfortable to talk to friend type people since I know it should be different from that. I guess I’m trying to ask, how can you keep people at a comfortable distance? Not too close but still there.
A h that just seems incredibly selfish of me I apologize

it's not selfish and a lot of people do not want to get too close to people. however, please don't do that. people will always come and go in life, always. it's nothing to be scared of. people come and stay, and people come and go. if people go, they teach you a life lesson. keeping people at a distance can prevent friendships often so pure and beautiful. i used to be like you and i really regret it five years down the line. it's scary being alone and feeling like you have no one to talk to.

don't think too much into talking. when i went on my first ever date seven years ago i was so anxious, i had no idea what to talk about. i mean, after three months the guy wasn't even in my life anymore lol but what i'm trying to say is the first date i thought too much and it ruined it. the second date, i relaxed. i didn't think about what we could talk about, i let the conversation flow. i'm not saying get comfortable, it's hard to relax around newer people or people you aren't close with, but don't put up a barrier. or at least try not to.

people are a wonderful part of life despite the heart many of them can put us through. but as i said, the hurtful people are the life lessons. they help you appreciate the small things in life. they help you appreciate the people that are in your life right now. don't hesitate in forming possible beautiful friendships and relationships with people, okay? please.

my throat is numb. my voice is gone.
i haven’t cried this hard in a long time.

throw on a sad playlist and cry some more. i literally put on a playlist the other day and cried from 11pm until 1.30 am and it was the best feeling ever. sure it hurts while you're crying and the reason why you are possibly crying, but it feels very refreshing to let it out. remember to continue to drink water throughout the day/night and have a lemsip or some throat sweet things. and remember, everything going on right now is temporary. our feelings are valid, but will it matter in a week? a month? a year?

write down your feelings. don't ignore them. embrace them. and know that you will be okay, okay? bad days are a part of the process, you need them to grow and heal as a person. you got this love, feel free to PM me if you need to.

really wish youtube had a filter/mute feature similar to twitter’s. there’s a name that is incredibly triggering for me to the point where i have it muted on twitter. i’ve blocked people for having the name because i do not want to see it. well, just my luck, youtube thinks i want to see videos with that name in the title. it’s happened only a handful times, but again, it’s a huge trigger for me and it sends me back to a very bad place. i mainly use youtube on mobile, so i really don’t think there’s a way i could filter it using an extension or something. for awhile the twitter mute feature was enough because that was the only place i’d see it. now it’s like i see it every week. my best bet would be to stop going on the recommended/trending page, but i feel like that just ruins things because i would miss out on a lot of content because of a silly name. my friends have given me advice to try and desensitize myself to the name, but every mention of the name makes me feel like it’s automatically associated with the bad memories. i can’t bring myself to name a character or anything it because it feels like i’m rewarding the person who hurt me? i don’t know what to do honestly. it’s such a silly problem with no solutions. i don’t want to keep having panic attacks over a name.

you can do that, and i'll PM it to you, too! i'll post it here for everyone to see though:
1) log into your youtube account
2) click your icon on the top right and then click 'youtube studio'
3) click 'settings'
4) go to 'community'
5) section for 'blocked words'
6) separate each word / phrase with a comma ( , ) and then click save

i hope this helps! and be sure if anything triggers you to look at the links i have posted below as they prove to be a great distraction / help with panic attacks. it's not a silly problem at all and your past is valid, but also remember that your past does not define you. you are okay and will be okay. sending you all my luck and love

Mmm so that's probably nothing, but I noticed that inside my dog's nose there is a white thing. It's part of her nose, it's on both sides, it can only be seen with a flashlight and there are no symptoms, she is fine. But I've never noticed that thing inside a dog's nose (granted, this is my first time actually examining inside a dog's nose with a flashlight) so I'm a bit worried. I think she is fine, but still.
I guess I worry a lot about her. She seems fine, but I'm worried.

it's probably no need to worry, it's just most likely the dogs equivalent to a birth mark. i can understand your worry, dogs are our precious babies. if you feel that worried, on her next vet check-up enquire about it? i'm sure she's okay <3

actively going into a panic attack at the worst possible time
had to end group early. only 15 minutes until my education session. yikes
and it's all because I got no sleep since I kept having nightmares, which makes me feel sick.
idk man, today just ain't it

when you go to sleep try eliminating any stresses you have had for the day. turn electronic screens off for an hour, or try sleeping with some background noise (whether it be a tv show, rainforest noises, youtube, white static noise, a fan, etc). have a hot drink before bed (hot chocolate, peppermint tea, etc) just not caffeine. make sure you drink enough water in the day. what causes nightmares? do you know? what are the nightmares? if it gets too extreme that it may lead to insomnia please consider going to talk to a professional. at the bottom of this post i will provide links to help with panic attacks (which zeena has also posted on the front post). i hope you are feeling a little bit better now <3

i don’t want to wake up tomorrow
i want it to end already

at least tomorrow is almost here, meaning tomorrow is almost over. life passes by very quickly but it's totally okay to wish the odd days away here and there (i literally cannot wait to attempt to sleep tonight so i can wake up to a new day). try to make the best of whatever the situation is. if you are being put in an anxious situation, sit down and remember the things you are grateful for in life. treat yourself at the end of the day to your favourite meal, snack, film, tv show, activity, etc. it's okay to reward yourself for the tricky days. life is tough, but when when the going gets tough, the tough get going . find some inspirational quotes and put on your favourite song. you got this.

im on the verge of tears haha i cant do this anymore

hey, you're okay. you're okay and you got this. you are strong and your past does not define you. whatever is troubling you at the moment, it is only temporary. you will overcome whatever is troubling you at the moment. your current situation is not your final destination. without specific details i can't say much because i don't want to generalise or assume situations, however, i am here for you and always available for a chat <3

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if you ever feel down or need a shoulder to cry on, my inbox is open. i have gathered links to help everyone when they need a distraction or are feeling low:

to help you smile:
list of little things - list of little things to help make you smile and be happy
smile things - cute colours and tumblr page to help you out
adorable - basically another tumblr that does the same as the ones above

to help you with anything else / distractions:
emergency compliments - if you ever feel poo, and nothing seems to cheer you up, this site is full of 'emergency compliments' which can make you laugh at how ridiculously brilliant they are.
casanova - where you stretch the giraffes neck to kiss other giraffes - like a soothing video game.
thunderstorms - control them!<3
how to change your life - just read it. it's amazing. too good.
player two - if you're feeling hurt or upset, visit here. it's a game. it's good.
koalas - if you're in need of a distraction that lasts a good five minutes, play this. it's fun, and if you love koalas it's even better!
stick man game - good distraction with a hopefuly message i made at the end!
random acts of kindness (video) - may make you feel all warm and gooey at how kind people are
list of things for those having a bad day!
quiet place project - one of my favourite places <3
comfort box - i highly recommend looking at this because it's the most amazing idea i've ever seen
ground box - similar to the one above

to help you with panic attacks:
i have loads of things that can help with your anxiety and panic attacks.

facts !!!!:
what not to say !!! - to someone who is having a panic attack, do not say these things

HERE IS SOME UPLIFTING NEWS IN THE TIMES OF THE BAD
'karunavirus'
'reddit'
'positivenews'
'huffpost'
'culture'


TUMBLR
i made a tumblr a few years ago, but just recently remembered my log in details. i hope to start using it again.

[vi‎ ‎]

just realized that this morning at 10am i had a zoom call with my instructor to go over materials for my test on wednesday.. and i forgot to join the call because i felt so bad this morning and didn't want to do anything so i was watching youtube.... oh my god i really am just so forgetful aren't i? even after i reminded myself several times the day before. i knew to set an alarm too. god i hate this. he probably thinks im dumb and irresponsible.

[a small animal]

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[Winstalgia]

my closest friend I have known for 4 or so years decided a bit ago she didnt want to associate w me anymore.

For context, my sister made a joke about death. It was obvious it was light hearted. My friend didnt like this and was offended by it. Which, btw, NO ONE knew she was sensitive to jokes like that, she literally is passive aggressive and never speak up abt anything

My friend asked me if I found the joke funny, I said yeah, kinda, but it was mainly cause of the emojis used and bc it was my sister saying it.

My friend got PISSED at me and decided she doesnt like me and wants to throw out a FOUR YEAR friendship.

I laugh at stuff sometimes, so what, sue me. I cant control whatever I laugh at all the time

And then she said that all of my other traits and qualities are outweighed by me laughing at that one dAMN JOKE

Shes talking to her parents but she said shes leaning towards no for being friends w me and I amlivid

[vi‎ ‎]

[Spearow]

just typed like a whole page and deleted it because its too cringe and i sound like a broken record.

to summarize:

i have a raging headache, my wisdom teeth are killing me, i'm having a fallout with my "best friend", i take my kitty to the vet tomorrow to see if he has squamous cell carcinoma cancer, and i work tonight and i guarantee my coworkers left all the end of the month stuff for me to do.

anyways, idk what to do but try to enjoy my day before work cuddling with my boy, and eating some miso & tofu soup which tastes amazing. so at least there is that. couldn't show a recent picture of my kitty because its too graphic and that kind of hits hard. picture is from last week or so before his nose got bad

Edit; he's napping now and posed for a photo so you can't see his nose. my best sleepy boi <3 wish him luck tomorrow. he so fluffy

[pthumerian]

i bought earplugs and i'm using them right now, but i still hear these stupid basses, and it's driving me insane.