TheComfortCorner | V.9

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i just need a break. a huge, two week vacation maybe. two month? two years. i need to get away from everything and everyone.

i went to my school today to pick up my textbooks and turns out i was supposed to get my ID card at the front desk and nobody told me? i ended up asking this guy later (who i didn't know, but i knew he was a teacher) and he started asking me these questions that made me nervous and in that moment my eyes started burning because i wanted to cry and i couldn't speak up even though i was always good at talking with people. i eventually got my card though, thank god

i want to know why the world is so cruel

my best friend changed, now that i think about it. we don't think the same. i'm more two-sided and open-minded about things and i just feel like she never thinks about anything before she says it and it makes me feel strange. we've always been sort of different but it never came between us, at least i don't think so.

the other friends i have aren't in the cohort that i'm in, and my best friend just so happens to be in the same cohort as me. i don't really know or want to know anyone else that's in our cohort.

anyway, i guess, as you can see, i'm not excited for school. all i need is a break and guess what? i'm having this test coming up for this 6 month course i'm taking and i'll have to study for it, when i forgot how to study in the first place

my mom tells me that we're in a bad financial place too, and that my dad might be let go. i'm praying that he won't be. i just feel so desperate for something good to happen and it just feels like i keep getting shoved every which way

[Spearow]

feeling stressed out and lonely, three more nights at work before i have two days off. have to keep telling myself that. just kind of feel like i'm going to freak out any second- my job is really stressful. i'm having relationship issues in every direction. i really need to focus on finding a way to make myself happy. i feel empty. really need to find myself

[bubbaberriboo]

just saw something that said “life’s a party and i’m the piñata” and something that silly made me realize that i’m honestly lying to myself about being happy and i’m just bottling all my emotions again lol

[viles]

• i push away everyone because i'm terrified of even small friendships, but then i have the audacity to feel lonely. smh emotions need to stop.

[pthumerian]

i'm so sad and fed up...

[raditz]

i’m so emotionally done that i literally cannot function without something bad happening into my head. drawing/doing art is draining me, and i keep promising that it’ll get better. it isn’t getting better. i’m in a different state with my aunts + cousins due to personal reasons and there’s so much screaming and yelling. i hate noise. noise is stupid. it shouldn’t exist. there’s 5+ little kids under the age of ten here and it’s so annoying to hear loud and out of tune singing from the basement as i sleep on the couch. i want to rip off my ears and not hear them, but i can’t. it’s draining. i can’t keep up at this point. i’m pushing away everyone who wants to talk to me, i don’t want this. i want someone to talk to me in person. i can’t. i just can’t. i’m literally seconds away from snapping. i need a break and someone to talk to, but i’m pushing everyone away. i can’t answer dms, pms, nothing. if i do, it’s either a one to two word answer or “lol.” i’m so tired. i can’t do this anymore. i can’t even sleep. i barely get any sleep, if i’m lucky 30 minutes or an hour. i’m fed up. i can’t do this anymore. i CAN’T

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[kísmet]

just had a moment to think about how disappointed my mom must have been when she realized that this is her child. i’d be disappointed as well. i’ve done nothing but make things worse in this family and i hate that i cant go back. i hate that i cant change how i was born, change how i grew up and acted. i’m disgusting, she didn’t say it but i know i’m just an embarrassment to her. i cant believe, with all i’ve put others through, i still go out and wish harm on them or want attention and sympathy to come towards me. it’s pathetic, i deserve to be treated like dirt, not them. this is my fault and the fact that i blame my emotions and actions on others and don’t own up to it is disgusting and pathetic. i run from and try to ignore everything like a coward, and then wonder why things are bad for me, i deserve this, i deserve to feel this way. i know everyone says this but i’m just ashamed, i’m a burden and i wish i could just let go already, things will be better that way, i know it. i don’t deserve attention, i don’t deserve help in any way. i’m not sick, i’m just an embarrassment, i’m a selfish, attention seeking, lying, toxic coward and a waste. a waste of money, food, time, space. and i’m glad i’m finally acknowledging it.

[Johto]

I just want to be able to finish my drawings. My depression won't let me and I keep having mental breakdowns while trying to draw.

[cribunni]

i don't have any friends.
i just walk around school all
day and don't talk to anybody.
i've tried so hard but i just can't.
i'm terrified.