TheComfortCorner | V.9

[Johto]

I just want to be able to read like I used to when I was a little kid. My eyes and anxiety are so bad.

[autumnsoundtrack]

Nothing I do is ever good enough. I will just never live up to his expectations of me, at least not in the very short timeframe he wants. I just hate feeling this way.

[villain]

the first time you said i love you it's like you spoke it out loud in a soft tiny font, i yearn to love someone the way you loved me. thank you for teaching me valuable lessons, i hope i see you soon someday once more. we'll find each other again, i know it.

[䏠xote]

been feeling kinda lonely, lately.
i wish i could connect with people.

[kísmet]

i hate anxiety man
i was so close to making a post but then, nah let’s go private, then, nah, let’s just not do it
i’m really just not gonna go anywhere in life huh
a whole week of mentally preparing myself, making a vision in my head on what i’d do and say, preparing the posts in my notes, now that’s all just being deleted and thrown out because i’m too scared to
jesus christ i haven’t even posted or anything yet i’m already hyperventilating, my heart is pounding and for what, i did nothing
why why why am i scared of this so badly, nobody else is
maybe i’m just gonna be lonely and struggle with this forever
i just don’t get why me, nobody else around me is having trouble with this, what made me be the one who has to deal with this, i’m sick of it
this isn’t just about a simple post it’s about me finally getting past this, finally taking that step to pull myself out of this and failing miserably each time i’m about to do it
i want to feel proud of myself, i want to be able to have some confidence in myself that i can do things and be able to look back and be like glad that everything’s better now that i’m not worrying anymore, and i can do things freely and just be happy
i’m ashamed and embarrassed and mainly just disappointed in myself
stop please i just wanna do things without being scared and worrying
why am i so scared, i already know this isn’t a big deal, i know nobody cares as much as i think they do, i know people are focused more on themselves and not me, i know that i’m overthinking and making everything seem worse than it is, why is it so hard to get myself to actually believe that
why can’t i just shut off my brain, i want to have fun and do things without care i hate how this is so hard for me
i thought i’ve gotten past my “ people are gonna laugh, they’re gonna judge you and tell other people so now you’ve ruined everything, nobody’s gonna like you anymore because of this, everything’s gonna go downhill from here, look what you did” stage, or was i just imagining things to make myself feel better? it sure feels like i’m not improving, feels like things are just getting worse honestly
i give up

[mean&gay]

i hate my dad. i'm too exhausted to list all the reasons. i'm even more exhausted by the fact that i somehow manage to love him too. i wish he could be a little more awful so i'd feel justified in never loving him again.

[hypnowave]

it's been about two years since it happened but i still think about it a lot. i'm just glad to know that i've grown since then.

[ThuggishThighs]

i have really bad dysphoria today. it was fine, and then boom, i thought about myself and now im really upset. i feel sick now and the fact that singing is my one vent doesn't help. my voice is low, but not enough. i won't get therapy for a few weeks and even if i get approved for the right treatments, my parents won't allow me to do them. i can't go to a new school which traps me in a corner of not being able to come out. people say to just shut my problems out, don't act like you're trans until you're a lot older, but the pain is now and id be lying if i said i could make it go away. if you want to shoot me a pm or give some advice, cool. if not, also cool.

[Johto]

I seem to have symptoms of the virus and my anxiety is weighing down on me.

[pthumerian]

I'm overwhelmed by all the stuff I have to do, I don't know what to do first and I don't understand 90% of it.