TheComfortCorner | V.9

[| nefelibata |]

I'm so scared. Please help.

I think someone is inside.

[dave gahans husband]

🗿

[connoisseur]

I'm supposed to move most of my stuff tomorrow and I waited all day for my boxes only to be rushed and drive all the way to pick them up myself and risking getting cited for being out during curfew. Then I get home and am about to start packing then I get told that plans changed, we're going Sunday. But... then why was I forced to get the boxes...during curfew? And it's such a mess cuz now everyone is angry with each other, including me. I'm angry at mostly everyone and everyone is refusing to admit that they messed up at some point and instead are just getting angry too. My god. Why does it seem like such a circus everytime it comes to something that NEEDS to be done on a time schedule. It doesn't help that my meds are making me more triggered at things, and I just get so irritated when I feel like others don't have common sense. I guess I need to calm myself down first and try to see things with a cool head but I'm just so annoyed. I feel like I'm at the bottom of everyone's list. I spent all day waiting, knowing I have a bunch of things to pack, only for them to come late and with no boxes. I have them now and I should at least be grateful for that but god it just makes me so annoyed that it seemed like a funny joke to the others.

[acura,]

my boyfriend just broke his finger in his match of rugby today.
I’m really worried for him and I hope he’s alright :< we were supposed to go on a date today and he was so excited to go,, I feel really bad that I wasn’t there with him.

[astaseul]

I wish I didn't have such a hard time expressing my feelings.
I only rarely feel comfortable expressing how I feel
around my s/o and my family is a whole other story.
It just feels like such a task whenever I want to express
that I feel happy, sad or any emotion when talking to people.

My voice is pretty deep and dull and people have
told me it's hard to distinguish how I'm feeling from
how I speak ;/

I don't have this issue when texting/typing because
emotions but yeh,,,

[rum]

having the worst depressive episode i've had in awhile. i joked about it with my friend last night, yknow, being funny and making chaos to cope with everything, but jesus it's so bad now. everything hurts so much. i feel so heavy and every movement virtually aches. i just want to melt into nothing and not have to deal with this. i have no form of expression and i dont know how to cope with it anymore. i can't draw or write because i dont have the energy, i can't talk to anyone directly because i don't know how, hell i can't even cry because i'm so emotionally stunted.
all i really want right now is to have a breakdown, get the feelings out somehow so they're not stuck in my head like this, festering, but i can't and it hurts so bad. all i want is to sit in my room for 20 minutes and lay there and sob but i can't even have that.

[onion]

people are driving me up the absolute wall just by existing and its like. why cant they just be good people? why does everyone have to turn out bad? why does everyone turn their back on me?

[viles]

• not feeling good today. tried talking about period things with my dad (aka casually mentioning it in conversation) and he freaked out. i want to tell him that his response bothered me, as it would be amazing to be open more about things like that. but whatever ig lol.

[onion]

the only thing im good at is being depressed

[saltcow]

im so sorry if i bother anyone, please don't feel obligated to read.
today has been one of the worst days over the past few years and I really needed to get it out before my mind drifts too far off. i was forced to come out today. it wasn't my choice. i had no control over it. it hurts me so so much that i could not take the time to do it on my own, i wasn't ready. my dad was talking at dinner about a very bad topic and he was being very very homophobic, so i spoke out on it. this lead him to say "if any of my children come out as gay or whatever, i would consider my life a disappointment." this hurt me very deeply and i began to tear up, since i identify as bisexual. i was crying silently, trying to stop myself, because i didn't want to give myself away. he started yelling at me and asked why i was crying, so i asked if i could go eat outside, to which he said no to. i left anyway, but he was screaming at me the entire way out. i broke down outside, like, convulsing sobs, because i was considered an utter failure in my fathers eyes, it hurt.my step mum and my sister figured it out and they asked me about it, which caused me to hurt so much more, even though they were supportive of it. i had no control over my own coming out story.
i wasn't planning on coming out till college, when i had more control over my life. now my dad hates me and im not allowed to go to his house anymore.
does anyone have any advice on what to do ? im pretty shaken and my mind isn't in the right place.