TheComfortCorner | V.9

[scxr]

i hate this year. i hate the world. i hate everyone.
i’m existing in a nightmare and i can’t wake up. it will never get better.

[NyanCatAndHelloKitty]

how to stop comparing myself to to other girls and feeling like a burden to those in my life

[anonymous dog]

if only i could tell em, i could tell the world

[pictochat]

why won't you try for me

[trilli]

???

[rover]

i texted my boyfriend last friday, but he still
hasn’t replied. i don’t think said something
wrong, offensive, or anything of that kind.
maybe because it was quite a wall of text,
though i tried to compress it, knowing his
personality. (there was a lot to address
and all.) mostly casual talk. nothing heavy.

i hope he’s alright. i still have to break up
with him, but that doesn’t mean that i
don’t like him as a person; i still care
about my boyfriend and all, but it’s hard
to imagine us together in the future.

a part of me wonders if he’s fallen ill or
even died.

[Spearow]

need to get a few things off my chest

i'm having trouble coming back to chicken smoothie

my hiatus has left me a little intimated with the task to catch up

but I want to come back and reenter the community.

i'm not doing medically well, and I feel like no one is on my side

i've been exposed to covid19 but I am not worried about that

i finally confided in my partner and part of my family that I have been

having unbearable chest pains, since June 28. it feels like a crushing sensation

in the center of my chest. my anxiety medication is no longer working so I have

to change it and hope it will help.

no one i've talked to thinks the chest pains are anything to worry about

on July 10th I was exposed to covid19, which I'm not really worried about

i planned on getting tested to be safe, and hole it is the cause of the chest problems

because if it isn't that it could be something more serious, it could be my heart

and it really makes me feel alone to know that my loved ones aren't taking me seriously

when I say I'm in pain. I have a high pain tolerance, but the first time it happened it hurt

so badly i was having trouble breathing, and I'm going through this alone. everyone thinks

i am overreacting. I am hoping that I have covid and it is not something wrong with me heart

it really tears me up that no one i have confided in has seemed the least bit concerned or worried about me

i don't want to go to a doctor by myself. i don't know of I should get testing for covid yet or if i should go get

an ekg. but I'm in pain, and those I should be able to rely on aren't there for me. </3

[KiraWolf]

I just want to cry all the time, nobody understands me and it hurts. It feels like the last person who truly understood me was my ex, but he wasn't good to me and I don't know what to do. Reaching out to people only helps a little bit because it really feels like nobody gets who I am or what I need. Everything always just hurts.

[mars]

just got off a call w/ my psychiatrist. had a really bad appointment.
I was having trouble vocalizing my current thoughts, then I burst into tears like a fool and couldn't say anything at all.
I didn't say anything that I wanted to talk to her about. it was pointless.

but at least I'm getting more clonazepam and got the number for an iop. hopefully I can tell them more.
hopefully they'll at least let me in,,,,,

[Seall]

I feel like Chicken Smoothie is no longer my safe space. I used to use this website to express myself. Well, I still do. But it comes with a price. I am getting so much hate nowadays, and I’m not complaining or expecting anyone to care because I’m basically asking for it, right? Loving Apple in this way is weird and I know it is. I just wish people were more accepting. I’ve tried to stay strong and simply ignore the haters but it happens so frequently and now people are calling me names and just being rude to me. I don’t get it because I’m nothing but nice to everyone.

Again, please feel free to ignore this if you’re going to hate. I just needed to rant.