-We have a new thread-

[pizzas and scream]

my head is still crazy inside, and if i sneek back to somethings I fall down again and again. reading my trainwreck at patched together's site brings me back to my "why not me come on, what, nobody wan'ts my design because i'm not the hero to 80 sparkledog fans who have to beg mommy for money?"

and so many things.
it's better to plug your ears and shut your eyes and run.

then I panic. even over stupid things, like when i see the kids post "OMG i want to die, I'm 12 and never been kissed, all my friends who are 12 to 15 all have babies and I don't have a boy/girl friend"

just to remind me of my ballances of desire, fear, discust, and the expectations and reality of "not only can i not have those fictional style romance. but i want but don't want to work for it. and not how they say

I can't answer personal adss. for what? i'll just be like a retarded child for someone. i'm not joining sites with people that have the same illnesses, and the influx of what-evers from pounced flustred me.

i don't have it. i cant make myself be what im not
but if i'm goingto i have to 'shut up, and do it"
when you are older and not with lots of people, you don't blush and ask out your crush. when you are way older. you go to personal ads, and define "OK so when we go on this date, when will we be a couple?"

stupid kids date who they think they are in love with, adults date to fall in love.
you don't have blushing games and hidden notes. you do it back wards.

maybe if can shove the hands of a RomCom movie writer into a door jam will make me happy.
or tell them to write one with a deformed woman.

hot chicks with hearts of gold can date monsteriously deformed men to show what kind of people they are. but what else is there? I just don't block them out when other's watch TV, but "50 first dates" just had a woman with severe amesia. her actress was still pretty.
but, where is a "woman with half a face" or "the romance of the one armed school teacher"

i panic in a special kind of rage , fear and discust.

everyone says you quest and you don't get.

but then i think of these, and my skin crawls. I have my own special personal character who is my "inner pervert". but he is male. a mix of my self hate and idea of "females who are sex addicts are icky, male sex addict isn't as icky"
the idea of intamcy makes my skin crawl. unless i was a hot guy?

who wants that even if i were kinder than a my little pony.

i don't bond and i hate it.
maybe there are pharmacutials that can turn me into a bubbly love bird or those types on TV

I shake on the inside holding my head

it almost went well then i fell back again.
but i can't like it for other people
or be happy with them, and their firsts or re-bound magic
(why do people even have to have that lable? "OH me and Tom broke up, but I'm going out with jason 2 days later"

I'm posslby more on the outside than the loudest furry wanna be, or some of the otherkin who go "IM nt human on the inside but I'll leave trails of my life for you in chats of all the people things I do"

[Metallic Dragon]

The kid who was spamming my phone earlier now has a Facebook.
And now he is spamming my Wall.

Block him. I've already blocked one person(though I kinda feel bad for it now)

[Ananda Regalia]

That I have to sketch some outfits for a raver boy to make. I really want to, I am really inspired, but I don't want to moove! Ugh, lazyness will be the death of me.

[wiz]

How impatient I am. x3

Especially with trading, ;_;

[Devilish]

i really wanna make an art shop with my sister, but my phones usually dont work and internet doesnt usualyl work so i cant update anything if i made one DX. i hate you shaw D:<.
~super

[Telescope]

I'm always afriad people on here don't like me, even though no one's ever said it. I just don't want to be one of those users where when you see their username you roll your eyes...like on youtube.

Everyone on here is so nice and I don't dislike anyone, but I'm afraid I'm annoying to someone else...

Edit-forgot my fancy colors!

[wiz]

I'm always afriad people on here don't like me, even though no one's ever said it. I just don't want to be one of those users where when you see their username you roll your eyes...like on youtube.

Everyone on here is so nice and I don't dislike anyone, but I'm afraid I'm annoying to someone else...[/color]

I love you, no worries ^^

[xChry.]

ugh, like, *name* stop talking about m behind my back. I can still hear you. and the fact that your talking bad about my mom? waooooooooooo -.- -headdesk-

[the murph]

I'm always afriad people on here don't like me, even though no one's ever said it. I just don't want to be one of those users where when you see their username you roll your eyes...like on youtube.

Everyone on here is so nice and I don't dislike anyone, but I'm afraid I'm annoying to someone else...

Edit-forgot my fancy colors!

I feel the same way. I find it obvious that a few members do hate me, at least they act like it. Telescope, no worries. You're so nice I don't think anyone could hate you.

[FoldєdPapєrHєarts]

And, every. single. chance. she. gets,
I hear, "You're too skinny." "You're so skinny" "How are you so skinny?" "I'm so fat!" "I wish I was like you"
"You need to stop being so skinny" "Dude, you're so freaking skinny" "You make me feel fat"
"How are you so skinny if you hate sports so much?!" DUDE. Can you stop ranting about how I look?
She complains about my appearance, the fact that I wear makeup, the fact that I hate sports, the fact that I eat like a horse,
The fact that I've changed since 1st grade {dude, really?}, the fact that I don't text her, and so many other things.
She mostly complains about how I stopped hanging out with her as much because I found a different friend who actually has things in common with me and doesn't complain about me most of the time. Well, sorry for not wanting to hang out with someone who bitches at me more than they talk to me and doesn't understand that I don't want to talk to them 24/7.

*hugs* I feel your pain. This part right here is where I feel your pain the most, though. D: I'm really skinny; I only weight 90-98 pounds(it varies) and I eat a lot, all of the time. And I never gain any weight. My one friend(who I am trying to talk to less and less) is always complaining about how skinny I am. "UGH, how can you eat so much and not gain anything!" "It's not faaaaaair! You're way too skinny." "You're SO skinny." "How is it that you don't do any sports and you're still skinny." I. DON'T. FREAKING. KNOW. -.- Just please stop talking about my weight, I'm self-concious enough as it is. I hope all goes well with your friend, though. :C

This brings me to another annoyance; people who are pretty skinny who are all "UGHHH, I'M FAT!" No. No you aren't. Shut up, please.