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[CloudedDiamond]

I've known you since you moved here, since you first started school here. I was essentially your first friend here. And now? you are just ignoring me. I sit next to you in one class, and not a hello the entire month we've been in school. I don't want to be your side friend. I wanted to be your friend. And anytime I try talking to you about something it all becomes about you. Everything is about you. I dont know why I havent deleted your number yet. Why should i even consider being your friend again. So many hours wasted on you. I cant even think of the happy moments with you without being completely mad at you. Anytime i want to hang out you're "busy" or "not feeling good." gee, what a coincidence. and my best friend left for home school so i haven't seen him since june and i have one friend left. im glad im not part of your life anymore. you always wanted everything to be about you. the world doesnt revolve around you. you want to be an actress and move to cali? good luck. you've been good at acting for all these years you've been my "friend"

i miss you, i miss you so so much. why did you have to go to home school? this year i have one close friend, but i needed you here this year. so many people are getting on my nerves, at least i have some nicer classes but i have no friends in those. i just want to be able to have a class with you, to talk to you again. i just.... egdfhfdhdafhdfh

rain, neah, if either of you see this, a dm on discord would be nice

[Winstalgia]

this is the worst my depressive episodes have been. It's been about a week now, but they've worsened these past couple days.
I've lost my appetite, I've had tremors due to my anxiety as well. Like, out of control. It was worse because of a coffee I had.

I don't even know why the heck i would be sad. It's like im hapoy for a while and then i slowly roll into depression before it repeats. My last episode lasted for about two weeks, and what broke it was the fact i went on vacation; somewhere new. I hate being home. It's none of my family members, just... The same routine each week, nothing new.

I'm constantly spacing out, I either sleep too much or I dont sleep at all, and right now my stomach feels weird and i could throw up maybe. I feel very detached from myself, like when you have a fever and nothing feels real.

I heard my grandpa ask my grandma if i was okay, because i seemed depressed earlier.

Yeah, just another episode but only my best friends know, and there isnt much they can do. I wouldn't be able to tell my parents but if this worsens I might.

I'm so irritable its ridiculous.

Each tike a new episode repeats, my smiles become less fake. I used to be so good at putting up a good front.

I might start crying now. I dont even know why id be sad, why i AM sad. It doesn't make sense.

[hummxs]

hi everyone! i don't know why, but i felt an urge to post this here:

your emotions are valid. don't let other people decide what you should feel. you have your emotions for a reason, and even if you can't figure it out, just know that you are not alone. there's always gonna be someone out there for you--a friend, maybe even a partner--who will be there for you through it all. it might seem hopeless now, but just know that there are over 7.5 billion people in the world. there's bound to be at least one person who will understand and love you for who you truly are. don't give up hope just yet!! i'm here for you!!!

my pms are always open if you ever need to talk or rant or just have a friend, or even a shoulder to cry on! i promise i don't bite <3

[Keir;]

well, my uncle left for a while but now he's back, with his girlfriend this time. and they're gonna be staying here indefinitely until they can both get jobs and save up enough money to get a place of their own again. he hasn't had a job in almost two years, and she hasn't kept one for more than a couple weeks in that time. i just feel like they're not gonna keep their promise of getting jobs and moving out as soon as possible, and they're just gonna stay here for a long time and not even help out at all.

[hypnowave]

i just feel like there's no motivation to keep going anymore
and i don't think it's fair to stop when so many people would kill for the opportunities i have
but i feel so drained, like i've lost all sense of purpose
i don't want to keep going anymore
i wish people wouldn't care about me so i could just stop without feeling guilty about it
i used to really wonder why on earth people would choose to drop out
and now that i'm so drained and tired of fifty five hours a day i can see why
i can't go on like this
i'm so exhausted

[겨울 꽃]

Honestly, I'm in so much pain. I'm so exhausted, both mentally and physically. I'm so done with this week, every day feels like it's prolonged
and I can't take it anymore. I'm on the verge of a breakdown but I have to keep myself together for just one more day. Just one more day and
I'll be able to cry for as long as I want, sleep for as long as I want and finally get the chance to eat breakfast and prepare proper meals. I feel
like this school term has been the most chaotic and grueling, I honestly cannot believe I've made it this far. If I try to maintain a positive and
healthy mindset and only focus on my work and studies, will I be able to last until the end of the year? I said that at the beginning of the first
term and I failed awfully. I'm honestly starting to lose credence within myself and my future but I can't give up just yet.

[grey matter]

my parents are too busy arguing
so i can forget asking them to purchase the earrings after i pay them
i can forget touching my toes for a minute so i can play video games this evening, like the one we got two days ago
i can forget making myself happy
because it's so hard to ignore them

it makes me wish i wasn't a minor under their athority
i wish i was an adult instead
living with a roomate
and not
them

but that's only when
they argue
and they have been
a lot

they're always so easily ticked off
they shout at me for no reason
it'd be easier if you just said it like a normal being?!
you want to teach me to not shout at you?!
what the hell is wrong
but dad doesnt care, he's off in his other state where he barely tries to text me and never tries to see me
and neither do mom and stepdad, they're off shouting, she's in their room alone and he's with the kids, talking to himself in the way i'm told not to

they don't let me call myself an idiot aloud
but you know what they do?
yell at each other
aloud.

you tell me not to ask questions
but you expect me to ask
or tell
every time i want to do
something not part of the "normal day"
you two better not ruin the weekend
BECAUSE I SWEAR.
you take away technology from my bedroom
and expect me to sit there
and just
listen to the anger

or you leave me downstairs
WITH YOUR KIDS
and expect me to watch them for some unknown amount of time while you try to not argue
then you get mad at me for following orders and tell me to hurry up and leave the house for an hour
so i wander
and that's
that

[Winstalgia]

during these episodes of mine i seem to lose my appetite. Eating becomes a chore.

I had three bites of my egg sandwich this morning. Here I am four hours later forcing myself to eat at least two waffles. I'm hungry. So I should eat.

I can't wait till this is over again.

[symbols]

Feeling crabby. Very crabby. That short run didn't burn off any steam either. So here I am chewing about 3-4 pieces of gum like a maniac.

[Keir;]

he left the bathroom a mess. he couldn't even take the time to rinse out the tub or sink or wipe off the mirror. there are huge black stains in the tub? and hair in the sink? and white streaks on the mirror? seriously? he didn't even close the toothpaste.