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[オオタチ]

SOmEBody HElp I DonT knoW IF THeyRe SendING me HInts oR They HavE a wEiRd pERsonALITY.
I will pay you with a beautiful video of kanye west (a meme) for any help : (

[fairywren]

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[Ford F150]

I just need out of here, I know I can leave but I am SO, SO scared.

[pthumerian]

All right then. Everyone online is a liar, every written word online has no meaning at all, and the only valid way to ever talk to people is with direct eye contact. Also it is completely wrong to ever have compassion, everyone who has problems is faulty themselves and need to fix their stuff, and listening to people with problems is not something you should ever do.
Thanks for telling me all these things, I think I would have never had these ideas on my own. Time to get rid of my few online friends then and never ever spend time with anything fantasy-related again.

[Ford F150]

I haven't had a panic attack in two years and today was the day I relapse. I honestly hate myself.

[mossmuttz]

You’re unbelievable.
Absolutely unbelievable.

[ARDYN☆]

you keep being with her all the time

i hate it

[hiero]

I am very shaken. This is not a new occurrence, but it is not any less frightening when it does happen.
I am not looking for a diagnosis from anyone here. I just need to let it all out. Every time it happens I can't think anything but "this is how I die, isn't it. I am going to die right now," despite the fact that what happens is not really "painful." I took a peaceful shower this morning expecting nothing more than that, but when I got out and started brushing my hair, something began to feel off. I chose to try to ignore it since there is nothing I can really do about it anyways. I continued to brush. I started to hear loud ringing in my ear. I continued to ignore it hoping it was nothing. I know what happens when this happens and I am still a fool and remained in the restroom. I started to feel intense nausea, like I was about to lose everything inside of me. I still ignored it. Haha. Nothing triggered this sort of response, why should I worry? Probably just a cold again. Then I started to worry because my vision went out. This happens every time. This is when I panic. I go completely blind for a little while. So I felt my way onto the floor so I wouldn't fall. Usually this is when I call for someone else to keep their eye on me, but today happens to be one of those (normally lovely) days where I am completely alone at home. So I sat there. Fatigue hit, I laid myself down on the floor on my side in case I might go unconscious and still throw up. Didn't, thankfully. This is when I start thinking I am going to die. I cannot describe in words the pure terror and peace I feel whenever this happens. I sat there basically blind, unable to pick myself up, and unable to hear anything but a vicious, ringing roar in my ears which rendered me essentially deaf as well. I was stuck there for quite a bit. I lost track of time. Perhaps it wasn't so long. I guess somewhere between 10 and 20 minutes.
My parents know this happens to me. This is the fifth time in the past two years, I think. That doesn't seem like much. But it sure feels like a lot when I am lying on the bathroom floor only able to think and feel. I wish I could talk to a doctor about this. But my mother doesn't want to bother.
The ringing in my ear remains now. It is not nearly as powerful; I can hear. My head continues to throb. I am shaky and weak. But I am okay. I was going to go on a walk later, but I doubt that will happen. Not in this state. I am just happy to be somewhere more safe than a tiled floor behind a locked door now.

[Winstalgia]

it's obvious I've reached my boiling point. I'm sad, and I just wanna talk to someone. (Please don't pm me). The only person I would confide in that I could reach at anytime isn't available, and won't have internet for the next 3 days.

It's stupid, I don't know why I'm sad or angry. But I guess small things piling on top of each other eventually turns into a tall tower...

And jeez, I made you a damn sandwich! You shouldn't invite us over to your house and then complain we're not cleaning! I'm going to watch tv, I spent the entire morning cleaning my own house and chores!