by pthumerian » Mon Apr 08, 2019 7:05 am
Sorry if this triggers people, sorry if it's too harsh in general, but it's really getting overwhelming....
I feel too burdened, I don't know how to continue. I mean, it's like this since like 15 years now, and I just keep existing for some reason. Pretty much all things invading and threatening my personal mind world absolutely scare me and cause me massive paranoia attacks, psychotic attacks, etc.
My personal world is so threatened right now that I don't know what to do with my fear anymore, it's just getting too much, and the only thing which keeps me from going totally insane is clinging to "the moment" like to a piece of driftwood.
So what is supposed to help me? Meds? No thanks.... destroying myself even more with something like that? Just no.