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[eli sunday]

Life is just so hard.

[kxLJM]

why am I like this
i can't keep going on like this
i hurt him and just end up hurting myself even more in the end
why am such an awful person
he'd be better without me
everyone would be better without me

[kitty teeth]

I'm so angry

[tea rose]

almost all of my interests suddenly lost their meaning. it feels I don't have a personality without them.

[Topsy Turvey]

I cant stop thinking about when that girl said she liked my personality,
and that being different is a good thing and it'll get me far in life.

But that wasn't even my personality talking, it was just depression.
Do I even have a personality? I haven't talked to people other than family in so long I can't even tell anymore.
God I say this but I'm just assuming I have depression, but how can you blame being suicidal on social anxiety.
Like I could understand that being a possibility in someone else's life, but not mine.

I really wish I had a proper diagnoses, other than a half assed anxiety diagnoses but I'm too scared to ask anyone about it.
What if they refused because they still stand by the original diagnoses? But after my attempt surely they would at least think about it?
But even if they did, they never like to label things because I'm a minor so they wouldn't tell me what they thought anyway.

[neferp1tou]

removed

[Keir;]

my parents didn't even care that i passed out in the kitchen this morning;; i woke up at like 4:30 am and felt really sick to my stomach, and was really shaky, i was barely even able to get downstairs. i was gonna get something to eat, because that's usually how i get if i go too long without eating (usually 4-5 hours). i ended up sitting at the bottom of the stairs for a couple minuets, and the shakiness started to go away enough that i was able to go to the kitchen. i was making a sandwich when i got really dizzy out of nowhere, and had this intense pain in the back of my head, so i sat down on the floor ... then i woke up sometime later (maybe just a minuet or two, or possibly closer to 10, idk), and i didn't even remember passing out, just sitting down. once i was fully awake, i was just as shaky as before, but i finished making the sandwich and just stayed on the floor while i ate it. after maybe 10-15 minuets i felt okay enough to get up, and i went to my parents room to tell my mom, because it really scared me and i was on the verge of having a panic attack over it. when i woke them up and told them what happened, they only got angry at me for waking them up. they didn't seem to care that i had just passed out on the floor in the kitchen. just that i woke them up at 5 am because of it. and they kept saying i shouldn't be so upset by it ... i've never passed out like that before in my life, and it was for seemingly no reason. what do you mean it shouldn't upset me? why are you telling me that i should've just got up and gone back to bed without even telling you about it?

[PROD.]

So if your reading my thread thank you.


I hate my sister. I hate her and I love her at the same time and I don’t know what to do. Since she is the youngest my father takes her side every time. She is a brat and if she does something wrong she blains it on us and my father yells at us for it. She cries at every single thing. If she doesn’t get what she wants she cries. I get forced to play with her. She doesn’t listen. They were eating my cereal and I joked saying that it was my cereal and my father yelled at me. But when my sister said that’s my room your sleeping in or that’s my cereal she doesn’t get yelled at. I switch houses because of my partners and when I come to my dads house with my sister she makes me feel like I don’t belong there. I love my dad and I was his first born... I don’t know what to do. I just hate it so much. When I get forced to play with her and I say I don’t want to I get dirty looks from my dad. Once I was sleepinng in the bunk beds “her room” because my back started to hurt sleeping on the couch, she said “ugh why do you have to sleep here” and that hurt me. I feel like I don’t belong.



Can anyone give me some advice or opinions?

[caesou]

every so often, i remember how happy you were then
and then i remember how it was me who let this crash down, down, down

we may never be able to return to that state, unfortunately...

[skyline]

i'm sorry you feel like this. i'm sorry it feels like i'm pushing you away. what do we have in common anymore though seriously think about it. every conversation i have with you now is just ridiculously awkward. it's nor your or my fault. we have nothing to talk about. last year you two made me cry myself to sleep at night because of how much you changed specifically, not even talking about s. now i'm closer to s than you, and that's not your fault. don't blame yourself for it, please. i want to be able to talk to you more but.. there's nothing to talk about, and with your personality, it's not like we can just talk about life like i do with s. i feel terrible, but you really made me feel like a piece of crap last year. maybe that wasn't your total intent but you did.

i would've had no problem with that either if i could tell it was just your way of poking fun, but you did it to literally nobody else in our friend group. just me. it always made me feel really stupid. i'm sorry you lost interest in the things i like and we can't talk about them anymore, and i'm so sorry if you feel anything like i did last year, but i hope you know i still love you as a friend so much, and i wish we could chat more. it makes me really happy to see you've changed.. but awful to see the stress you've been in lately. that post you made tonight almost brought me to tears, because i know it was about me ;;

thank you for being so concerned about me and my condition. i'm sorry i worry you with it.. it worries me too, but to see you care so much is really heartwarming to me, and i wish i could take your problems away too, and the way you feel about all this. please forgive me for distancing you, i don't mean it by any means. i wish we could have the relationship we once did, but we just.. can't, and that's nobody's fault. just, hear me please when i say i still care about you so much.