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[blackhoeses]

Just kind of need to let this out, I am a part of a growing group. And been there since pretty much the beginning. Any how I saw the owner struggling with something. So I offered to help and was told they did not need help right now. Which I totally understand. So I cheek on the group today and see that they posted the position I offered to help for free a moth ago. With all these perks and well my feelings are super hurt. I am in near tears, I know its not a completely rational response to just a "game". But it relay hurt seeing that the job had been filed and the owner had never even thought to contact me. Logically I know they have been supper busy lately but still my emotions are super hurt.

Just kinda need to let this out in to the universe thank you for "listing" to my lil rant/ramble

[Winstalgia]

I feel so lazy and unproductive lately. I've only done about 43 hours worth of school since my Birthday,, in January!

I feel like I should just drop my dreams now,,

Today I've felt so sad even though it got better around lunchtime.

I played video games instead of doing school, and I feel sick.

My self-discipline,, believe it or not, is pretty good.

But recently everything I'd usually do I just,, don't,,?

I feel like jamming out on my keyboard,, or guitar,, but I feel so unmotivated and I hate it.

so much.

I could cry right now, and I don't even have a reasonable explanation for why I could//why I feel so sad.

I just need someone to tell me in a harsh manner to get off my butt and stop lazing around and do something-preferably school related.

Honestly, if you're reading this,, please message me and scold me for not doing school and stuff I should be doing to help my future career. It'd help if you sounded rude,, and I won't be mad at you,, it's just what I need right now.

But for real,, message me like that. Please. ^^

[hiero]

Relationships are hard. Apparently. For me at least. I can't go three days without causing destructive conflict. Somehow he still cares about me, I'm grateful. But I feel like I'm not a good person at all and that he deserves so much better than me.

This time it was over my behavior, my mental state has been on a continuous decline for a while now. I consistently feel numb and almost unhuman because of my total lack of feelings of any kind. Unfortunately, because of this, I've turned to being mean on occasion for the adrenaline rush and fleeting feeling of passion I get every time.
I've not been mean to him. His sadness upsets and concerns me. But people I don't know, with the numbness, I just don't feel much for. And my sick brain says it's worth it to feel good. Then later I feel even worse for what I've done. It's like a drug, in a way.

I take a strange sort of pleasure from feeling this regret and sadness. I wish I... felt more. Emotions are not appreciated enough. Apathy is overrated and destructive.

[cornspurrd.]

cancled plans last minute because i had a anxiety attack.

I wish i could be a normal person. Like. For real.

She probably hates me now. And that only worries me further. I cant ever keep friends.

[LilacSky]

Everyone says that high school is the best years of your life, but that's such a lie it's not even funny.
All my relationships are crumbling and I can't stop putting myself down.
I can barely get up and go to high school, so how can I be expected to make it through college?
I told my therapist that I didn't want to take public speaking in college and maybe go to an art college, but she told me it's a required class for almost all degrees.
I'm not interested in "valid" things and my choice for a career is probably going to let me down.
I want to be an author and maybe illustrator but I'm probably going to fail and plummet.
Nothing I do will ever be enough. I'm stressed out even when I'm relaxing, my parents/family/friends all hate me, as do my teachers, I have a D in one class and it's close to an F, I just will never add up to anything, yet even when I try, I just suffer.
I just want to move out, not go to college, get a job and try to become an author, but I'm terrified to learn to drive and I have a crippling fear of abandonment, but all I do is bother everyone I get close to.
I'm terrified to date but I can't be alone.
Everything I do! I'm telling you! It's all wrong. I wish I had a normal mind, that I wasn't terrified of all these things.
I want someone to PM me and talk to me and rp with me and be my friend and that's too much to ask.
Maybe I should just stop existing.
: )

[HowlToTheWind]

She abandons me every freaking time. Nobody loves me. I'm useless.

[cad bane]

i miss her.
i wish i could go back and do friday all over again.

[will byers]

i always seem to mess something up
i cant even have a normal conversation anymore

[farewell]

I feel like a bad friend. looool

[cribunni]

sometimes I’m really afraid that eventually, everyone will realize how horrible I am and leave. I’ve been bracing myself for it since I was 10 years old. I want so badly to make some news friends like all of my middle school friends have been doing, but it’s so hard for me. I just wish I could be like everyone else and talk to people. guess I don’t deserve that.