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[rover]

update from last time!!

blood test results still haven't come in... it's been over an entire week already..! i hope they come in soon. mom dad, and i are ANXIOUS to see the results. ><""

lately, i've been experiencing chest pains/discomforts. it makes it difficult to sleep. i have trouble breathing too. it's as if i'm not getting enough air (there is this weird heavy feeling in my chest??) so every once in a while i have to take a HYOOOOOGE SUCC of air in XDDD
what's more, i have to do a lot of walking (school, big campus) and exert myself physically during physical ed class. hGHGhgh-
i didn't tell my pe teacher anything, because i'm honestly so shy. :,D

yesterday was probably the worst day where breathing was the hardest. i hope today isn't as bad....

[Winstalgia]

how come I just,, can't have my own room.

I know this seems minor but my siblings annoy me so much sometimes,,

like today. Today is off to a bad start. I wanted to paint but I couldn't find the paintbrushes.

My brother destroyed my puzzle I've been working on the past week,,

My sister watched him do it and didn't do anything!

My other sister is just being venomous and harsh today.

I just want to go over to my Grandparents and sleep; watch tv.

But no.

Instead I have to clean alongside the people who are making me stressed.

I'm at my boiling point and if something else happens I'm going to explode.

I hate exploding,,

Because then I get in trouble.

I thought today was going to be fine,,

we weren't doing anything after all.

But aaaanopeit'snotthatgoodofadayrightnow.

At least I know this evening and night will be peaceful,, there's never been a night that wasn't peaceful at our house after spending the day doing chores and cleaning.

[Yeegurt]

I really wish I didn't have to rely on other people to be happy.
I hate doing so, but I just don't see any value to myself; I have to have someone else assure me I'm worth doing all of this.
When I say "all of this", I guess I mean... Anything? Just getting up and taking care of myself, going to school, exerting effort in such school...
But i don't even feel like I have this "someone else" to motivate me. My friends don't really go out of their way to talk to me outside of school, and I'm not about to have a mental breakdown there.
I don't want to be the first to talk to them either. I'm sure they have other things to be worrying about. Other friends to be talking to. I'm not that special.
Whatever, man

[darkin]

im still so upset and my stomach is hurting so badly.
i want this to stop. i want my thoughts to stop tormenting me.

[houndoom]

i want to rebuild my life from scratch. i want to exist someplace other than here. everything is stressing me out.

[fiirstcrush]

im so sad when you're gone, You told me you'll be a bit busy today and that you'll miss me, does that mean you like me? i found out u like girls, and after i did uve been sending me such mixed messages
i long to be by u : (

[skyline]

look, you're fun to talk to sometimes and i like being around you, at least i used to. you're so needy though, like if i don't talk to you for a day you think i hate you when i come back. i'm just not a very talkative person and i've told you this, but you don't seem to get it. i know you're young. but i've told you this so many times. i often feel bad but like, i told you i don't talk to any of my friends very often, it's just my personality. please get to know this, i hate feeling guilty for something i shouldn't.

[eli sunday]

Don't ya'll just love waves of disappointment

[dakotapaws]

I just got done with college
and now I have to hear more
unwanted comments about how I should
get a job.
yes I know I should get one
I know I need one
telling me constantly and
threatening to throw me out
if I don't is getting kind of old
my stuff is basically ready for when
I get tossed out on the streets at this point
we live in a new state, its not like theres anywhere for me to go, yknow?
I just wish someone understood it just isn't that easy for me

[farewell]

If anyone needs someone to talk to, my messages are open.