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[kitty teeth]

I just want it all to stop.

[fiirstcrush]

She will only be gone for 2 hours, Why do I feel so alone without her?

[samesia]

i was broken up with in a pretty rough way,
it was a week before our 4 month anniversary,
so like...the 25th of february this year is when he dumped me.
it was at school nearing the end of the day, we usually
ditch class just to be with one and other so that's what we did.
he took me down to a secluded area of the school amongst bushland,
it was going fine, just sorta listening to music and cuddling etc etc,
like we always did.
i often asked him things like, "are you sure you love me?"
"are you sure you want a future with me?", he'd always say "yes"
and needless to say i sorta expected that same response upon asking
it again. we were both silent for a little while before he said something like
"i don't wanna say it."
i encouraged he did, at this point, i knew what this was leading to.
"i can't keep worrying about you, i think we should split up. i just don't
love you anymore."
it hit me like an anvil, i was at a loss for words, a week prior to our breakup he was
always gushing over me, calling me sappy cheesy things like "my sweet little dove."
and "the love of my life whom i never want to leave."
it was just so spontaneous, having him not love me anymore.
i sound egocentric. but again, it definitely contradicted everything he said only
a couple days before.
i cried a lot that day, i begged for him to give me another chance but he wasn't budging.
now he considers me his best friend, i've told him that i don't love him anymore but
that's a fat lie.
i guess in the end, it's my fault.
i miss being his "precious flower" and things like that, holding his hand and leaning on his shoulder
as he'd walk me home. he used to come looking for me in the mornings, he'd sometimes even show
up randomly at my house whenever i was upset, he'll never do that anymore.
he won't kiss me throughout the day when i least expect it, he won't wrap his
arm around my waist and tell me how much he loves me and how special i am to him
anymore. i don't wanna have to watch him do that stuff to somebody else soon, he's still
the first thing in my head when i wake up and the thought that keeps me up at night.
we still talk, we're still close, but it hurts so much.
i almost wish i never met him, because i know i'll never find somebody to love as
incredible as he was.
he essentially gave me a will to live, he was there when i had NOTHING.
now i'm back to square one.
i feel so empty and cold without him being my own,
he still means the universe to me and my feelings haven't faded.
it's so stupid, but sometimes when he hugs me, i imagine he's still mine and
i'm still his, and for a split second i feel as happy and safe in his embrace as i
once used to.
he still calls me 'sweetie' and 'lovely', he still kisses me on the forehead, my feelings
towards him doing that are bittersweet.
i just want him back, that's all i want.
i wanna watch him run towards me up the street, apologise for being two minutes late to our date,
then take my hand and kiss me gently.
i'll never be as happy as i was a month ago, i feel like half a person again,
i'm lucky to still have him in my life but sad that he's not in the way that he once was.
this is so silly.
this makes no sense.
i still find myself longingly staring at him when he's across the room or not
noticing me, knowing i'll never get him back, whenever i see him smile
i just want to hug him as tight as i can and tell him how in love with him i am.
i cannot do those things anymore.
i am still holding onto that letter he wrote for me back in october, it was really sweet,
i remember vividly how he confessed his feelings towards me, how happy it made me.
he said it was the best day of his life, that he actually felt something.
i wish i could get over him, i don't know how, i need help.
i'm still holding onto him, the only reason i still get out of bed in the morning
is because i'm dwelling on the small chance that he may come back to me one day.
but he won't.

[yeosang1]

how am i supposed to get over a death of someone i was so attached to
it wasnt even that long , but before i knew it he was gone
and i cant stop crying
and i want it to stop
idiotic videos of my favorite kpop stars at this point wont stop me from crying
i cant even watch one video of him just saying 'hi' or a .5 second video with his smile in it
without crying so hard
this is so difficult
i just want this to stop
i want the feeling to disappear
i miss jonghyun so much
and it shouldnt affect me that bad since i wasnt even close to him
but this seriously hurts
so much

[Chevelle000]

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Here is my story that leads to this article:

Years ago I was in an abusice relationship (my teen years). I feel in a deep depression. I won’t go into very many details other than my mother found out in a VERY unpleasant way. I was not allowed home alone. I had no door. My sibling (much older than me) told me to never tell my parents I was depressed. It stuck with me. I never did. I pretended to “get over it” and acted happy. It never went away.
Flash forward to a few days ago. I had a breakdown. I was just so tired of thinking so many thoughts I googled why I felt so much all the time. I found this article. I cried tears of joy. I thought I was alone feeling this way. I cried tears of joy to finally feel understood. I sent it to my fiancée for him to read and understand and when I got home I told my mom and sent it to my dad. My dad and I exchanged very emotional messages and I found out that he felt the exact same way all the time 24/7. He understood. My mom finally listened to me and we cried and she told me that I could do whatever I needed and wanted to do. She would help me go to the doctor or therapist or she would help me work through it as best as she could. Guys I just wanted to tell you how much of a weight it was lifted off my shoulder just to talk to someone I love and have them understand. I was so scared. I was so tired. I didn’t understand my emotions and tbh I still don’t but I feel almost free now. I don’t have to hide anything.

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But also I just wanted to show a kinda happy story and moment in my life (:
I feel like I’m on top of the world (: <3

[breadstick]

welp i found out two ppl i knew who pretended to support me actually didnt and are real, real transphobic
not just one like i thought lmao!!
this is just a big gut punch honestly. i wonder how many people i have around that are faking their support now hh
right now i just need a hug fjhrgjth

[Atlas ♥]

I used to wonder how adults used to be so depressed,
anxious, isolated.

But as I've grown older, I've recognised how easy it is
to fall into the void of depression, to experience
anxiety attacks and to feel like you're lonely.

And how it's so arduous to escape these feelings and
thoughts.

[caesou]

it seems that i fell in love with the idea, and not her -
how heartbroken would she be if i told her that?

and i want a second chance as well. i want to prove to her that i'm better than this, this isn't who i am, this and that and...
oh, how rough the world is

[Painful Affinity]

My friend, my only friend, does not believe in me getting better. She thinks i'm 'comfortable with my situation'.
News flash. I'm not. I'm working on getting better but that's not 'good enough' for you because you already made it and i didn't.
That really hurt, you know?
Or perhaps i'm just too sensitive. What do i know anyways.

[tūī]

There has been a terrorist attack where I live, against Muslims. This is the first western attack from our country. My whole family is afraid because it was in the same town we live in. I'm Jewish, so I go to shul. I'm not very religious, but I'm afraid the Muslim community might retaliate... and there's a good chance us Jews will be targeted.
I honestly don't want to be in this country right now...
I don't want to die.