TheComfortCorner | V.8

[grey matter]

i'm feelin isolated
lonely
bored
i'm realizing roleplays keep me
afloat
life's just a poem
a long one
lingering
but does it matter
now?

[a small animal]

see that? she TALKED to it! How brAVE!

leave.me.alone.

just because you think I don’t know everything you say about me doesn’t mean I don’t.

I stg if I see one more post about your darling monster who made you the saint you are today I will be physically sick all over your lovely carpet.

but then again you’d probably post a long poetic exaggerated story about cleaning up the vomit and accepting that it wasn’t my fault, well damn right it’s not, huh

[onion]

how do i get over someone after all weve been through... how do i just let go... it hurts so much

[eolian]

I've forgotten what it feels like to actually laugh, I miss it...

[niico]

i hate that my girlfriends in the closet. well no, she wants to go back in. we used to be able to kiss each other bye before going to class and now she says no and just goes to class. it makes me feel terrible and i told her that today. she said it was embarrassing. im just really hurt i dont know what to do.

[cribunni]

the fact that I literally made you want to stop trying hurts me so bad. I know that you don’t care enough about me anymore to even try to talk to me. I feel so guilty that I wasn’t outgoing enough at the beginning. I’m so sorry.

[farewell]

If anyone needs someone to talk to or rant to, feel free to shoot me a message.

[䏠xote]

honestly like what the heck is the point

[Winstalgia]

The future is terrifying.

Absolutely terrifying. Like,, it's not right. I get anxious every time I see or get asked the questions
what are you going to do when you're older? What will you go to college for? what's on your bucket list?

I mean, I love answering these questions but I'm super indecisive but I finally know what I wanna do just

doubt.

It's eating me alive.

Yes, I want to become an astronaut and if that's not possible, I'll be an astronomer. But like,, should I even try to be an astronaut??

Yes, no. Yes, no. I can't decide. smh.

I'm already doing physics, which is like grades ahead of what I should be learning. I hate math but I'm willing to learn it. Doesn't help with my bed memory and the fact that I'm probably one, two, years behind in math.

augh life.

the future.

decisions, decisions, what to do, what to do.

mmmm. This is half of what I wanted to write so I might write more later. idk. I just need confidence, y'know? It doesn't work anymore-people telling me I can achieve my dreams and all that jazz. I'm a realist. Looking at the facts and stuff I just... it's a very small chance I'll ever be able to go to space. I have time but time also isn't something you can't get back sooo I can't fail.

You can respond if you want too. c:

[skyline]

i wish i didn't have to worry about this. how many people actually fear it? have to fear it? or are forced to because of a reason? other than myself? at my age at that. they're missing something... two different ones and yet neither of them can see the severity i can detect. it's only a matter of time unless i find someone who's truly on it and can see how serious what i have is. how the hell do i know i'm not just going to have an immediate heart attack in my sleep one random night? i feel these pains so constantly now i've almost become numb to them. hey, they haven't killed me yet. these meds aren't enough, no level of dose is going to help it. why won't they just fix it? why are they so hesitant to fix me? just fix me. god why is it so hard? it's your job. it was their job too, but if i had stayed with them, i'd have died. how do you miss something so obvious? so obvious to the point where an intern was able to see it, and not you guys? you call yourselves "professionals?" i call you useless business scammers. i hope you lose your jobs, for letting me go this long and not realizing i had it until it got worse. how do you misdiagnose someone THREE times? how do you miss something so clear? now that it's worse, i don't know what's going to happen to me. you new guys seemed on it at first but now, all you want me to do is take medication? and when i say it's getting worse, you increase the dose.. but yet the medication has done NOTHING. i told you this, i let everyone know. but you're still approaching it so subtly. i really would appreciate not dying, thanks.