TheComfortCorner | V.8

[gamorasass]

sick in the head. im tired of it.

[cswolf.]

Why don't my parents ever listen when I tell them that work causes me bad anxiety and that they have no right to tell me I am not allowed to quit or say no to working extra. Why don't my superiors do anything about me literally being harassed and bullied at work? Why does my mother side with the bullies? I am honestly done. I am so done. I am done. They will not listen to me so I am getting ready to do my revenge. They are wasting their time bulling me. I. am. done. Also, why do people feel like they have the right to tell what I can and can't do. Why do they feel like their solutions are the only solutions? Why do they not notice my defensive mechanisms? Why do they not notice when I am calling for help? Please, someone needs to help. I can't do this anymore.

[<<3]

I feel like i'm a diposable friend, nobody cares if i'm there and nobody cares if i'm not, nobody cares if my feelings get hurt, but they care if i hurt someone else's feeings. They don't care is the hurt me and make me sad, mad, happy etc.... Especially today during ELA. When i got up and left the table nobody came and asked me whats wrong? they just kept talking and doing work. I don't really trust anybody right now so what does it matter.sometimes its just hard to stand or be happy.

[halo7]

it's all her fault that i feel this way. i always feel that whatever i do i'm being manipulative. i always feel like a manipulative liar whenever i have a different opinion than someone else, or if i want to do something other than my friend does. i feel worthless whenever i want something. whenever i want something other than my friend wants, my brain goes "MANIPULATIVE!MANIPULATIVE!MANIPULATIVE!MANIPULATIVE!" and then i feel bad for myself. i hate it. i hate having to be reassured that wanting to do something different isn't something a manipulative, horrid liar would do.

you ruined me more than you thought.

[prisms.]

Did I
mess it up
like I always do
Now you probably hate me
For trying to help
And I wont
mess things up
again
I'm sorry..

[tuxam]

my grandmother is in the hospital again and i have no idea how long she's going to make it. she's always gone overboard with her "i'm really sick and going to die" but now it's actually true and i just don't understand how to handle the emotions i'm feeling. i've never been good with my emotions but this whole ordeal is just killing me, i know that i love my grandma but i just can't comprehend what I'm feeling and it's making this whole thing even worse...

on top of all that, my brother has been saying some very rude things most of them i can't repeat on cs to me. i get that he's upset because of our grandma as well as his "anxiety and depression" that he blames on everything. i get that every case of mental issues aren't the same but i have those too and i still don't go around telling people that "they're the worst person i've ever met and i wish i've never met them or at least never see their face" and then blame it on my mental issues.
because that's not your mental issues, that's just your horrible personality coming out and you're trying to find something you can blame it on without seeming like a total jerk. but still i'm in tears over this whole thing and i just feel so tired of it all. i wish i could just leave and never experience anything again, it'd make this all so much easier.

no need to reply if someone actually reads this. i just needed to vent and didn't want to burden anyone by dming them and trying to vent to them.

[Sciencin']

and I feel anxiety in this Chili's tonight

[farewell]

Getting that diagnosis was so weird to me. I suspected it and I didn’t fight with it, but it was definitely weird coming out of someone else’s mouth. A professional’s mouth.

It’s like you suspect you’re screwed up mentally your whole life and play it off as just being dramatic and what not and then to be told that you actually are... it’s comforting and also very uncomfortable at the same time.

It’s also a type of diagnosis I don’t think would be appropriate to share with people. It’s very stigmatized and the last thing I want to do is have even more incorrect assumptions made about me. Especially in the past few months, this word has been thrown around left and right, mostly incorrectly. People are aggravating.

[will byers]

my friend is being really mean to me
ive tried syanding up for myself but they keep changing the subject
they call me disgusting, ignorant, and tell me to grow up
i thought we were best friends, im trying my best to keep thinking that everyday but my hope is fading away that it isnt true
im sorry i have to be such a screw up
i cant even hold a conversation correctly withoujt getting yelled at by them

[skyline]

no rollercoasters
no coffee
no haunted houses

why can't i have some other illness that doesn't keep me from being able to enjoy my absolute favorite things?
i don't have much dignity anyway, i never did. why take away the little things that make me happy?
why the hell did i have to be born with this condition specifically? just why?

ugh there i go again with my ugly deep 3 am thoughts