I don't like using the word 'hate' when speaking about someone so I won't.
But I just very much dislike my dad right now. Not just now though, for the past year or even two.
He doesn't listen to me. He doesn't ever believe me. He doesn't ever care. He just hates me now, and I don't very much like him.
He makes things a bigger deal than they are. He won't listen to a word I say, and will just repeat everything I told him, but back to me, as if I was dumb or I never said it in the first place.
He always tries to tell me that everyone else out there except him is dumb, trying to use me, or are just bad people. But that's not true. That's so hurtful too. There are not so great people out there, but there are genuinely some good souls.
I would just think he would believe in me enough to know who is which, and I do. But he doesn't like anyone. So if I do, I'm dumb and wrong. But I've found that lately, the more I listen to him, the more wrong I do and mess up.
If I try to help people, I'm dumb and wrong. If people try to help me, I'm dumb and wrong. He doesn't help me. He just talks crap about me to my mom. And then she gets mad at me until I tell her the real thing, and why he's being ridiculous.
I just don't like my dad anymore. I just want to go away from him and here.