TheComfortCorner | V.8

[risotto]

my sister is stressing me out so much, I'm disgusting because the shower is difficult to turn on and I have barely any clothes and my sister is taking the wii u after my brother lets me borrow it and she doesn't even ask him and I'm voted out of my mind all the time

She leaves for weeks and barely talks to us but now we have this dhe takes it

She's asking me to do stuff and I've been doing stuff for people all day and I'm in physical pain and out of motivation so I'm just moody and she's mad at me for that like I was just out there and you didn't message me to grab it like I'm done with everyone

[Kira Nightblade]

*hugs* You are not for nothing.
Just hang on, its always darkest just before the dawn, the world would not be better if you were dead.
You are worth something, you matter.
PM me if you ever need to chat <3
Honestly I can not do public speaking either, a lot of people can't. That doesn't mean you're worthless.

[halo7]

i hate people.

[basil!]

I don't want this I never asked for this why do I get it why why why why why me I don't understand why me??
what did I ever do to anyone
please
all I want is for others to be happy because that's the only thing I can ever do that will matter
I cant make myself happy
I cant change anything
please.
I'm tired of playing this game of pretend
no one will even believe me
please.
just stop smiling.
just stop being like this.
I feel so embarrassed.
I hate talking to people I hate it I always say the wrong thing and the internet is anonymous yeah but ugh I'm so immature and disgusting and it hurts so much inside I don't know what to do I want to get away from this whywhywhy

please stop

[will byers]

my moms yelling at me when im sick and i feel like puking

a pm would be pretty rad but it doesnt matter

[Atlas ♥]

Today I went to an Aged Care Facility and engaged in various activities with them (Christmas crafting, bowling,
poetry, photography, and flower arrangements). I honestly loved it, particularly when I was singing Waltzing
Matilda and they joined in.

It was also quite upsetting since they don't get visited much and this is essentially their last destination. I saw a
lot of elderly (even a 103-year-old!) and noticed how much they were struggling.. Although I really enjoyed the
experience of making their day more delightful, I also wonder if it's the last time I'll see their lovely faces. :(

[tea rose]

Why do I have to be afraid of every little thing

[Lechuga]

It's currently 12:40 am. I have to wake up in 5 hours, and I have a 6 page speech due in 6 hours. I have a little bit over half of it done, but I don't think I'll be finished until 2 am. Then I still have to shower. I'm not getting more than 3 hours of sleep tonight, and it's not like I can take a nap after school because I have practice. Then I have to study for a test I have on Friday. I'm about ready to drop out of high school from all of the responsibilities and stress.

[(de)cipher]

I don't want this I never asked for this why do I get it why why why why why me I don't understand why me??
what did I ever do to anyone
please
all I want is for others to be happy because that's the only thing I can ever do that will matter
I cant make myself happy
I cant change anything
please.
I'm tired of playing this game of pretend
no one will even believe me
please.
just stop smiling.
just stop being like this.
I feel so embarrassed.
I hate talking to people I hate it I always say the wrong thing and the internet is anonymous yeah but ugh I'm so immature and disgusting and it hurts so much inside I don't know what to do I want to get away from this whywhywhy

please stop

Hey,
If it's not too late, would you like to talk?

[skyline]

i simply cannot fix myself. i try so hard but how am i supposed to help my procrastination? hell i've wanted my acne gone more than anything for six years, and yet i cannot even make myself get up to do a simple cream treatment at night. my mind is so stubborn. my mom blames it on me, she tells me that if i actually did what i was supposed to do to treat my acne, to succeed, then i would. ouch i kinda made her sound worse than intended. she's a great mom, but she doesn't understand that i just can't. i cannot bring myself to do things, she blames me not having any friends on the fact that i don't go to public school, and that she wants to put me back in school. i don't have much time left to make that decision either.

nevertheless, i can't go back to public school, despite the very small amount of time i have left to go, i haven't attended public school since fifth grade. there's no way i could shove myself back in now, maybe that's why i'm so lazy, and procrastinate beyond unholy levels, because i haven't been taught the focus, and organized way to deal with things, i'm not used to that, so my brain cannot fathom actually being productive. maybe it is my fault. maybe my mom is right. but i can't just fix my years and years of broken focus and will to do things on my own, and i don't know how i'm going to get help for it.

i'm also always worried about waking up at 4 pm again, missing the day, and any chance i had to interact with anyone, and yet i still cannot force myself to sleep. the cycle continues though, despite how much i wish to stop it. despite how much i wish to stop all my awful habits. they continue. everything stays the same and i can't do anything.