by ∘Raven∘ » Mon Nov 26, 2018 4:12 pm
I'm super stressed about literally.....everything. I keep getting sick, and since this semester started, I have been sick at least 6 times, and I can tell I am coming down with something again...
TBH, I'm bone weary. I think I've been stretching myself too far for stuff that shouldn't matter to me irl, and I don't know how to stop.
That's about a third(ish?) of my problems right now. Another big thing is not being good enough at art. I feel like I cannot please everyone, including my professors, and it is really stressing me out, and I don't know what to do because I am doing my literal best at everything I can, and my grades don't reflect that. Looks like I might make an A in 3 of my 5 classes, which means my GPA may not be high enough to get into the art school I want to go to, which means I may not have a career?
And I feel like my art isn't good enough for the age I am when I look at other artists my age. It's frustrating, and I'm so tired I can't actually rest when I sleep anymore. I wake up more tired than when I went to sleep and usually wake up at least 10 times a night, which is just aggravating things. Needless to say, I am absolutely exhausted and feel like I cannot reach peoples expectations of who I am/who I am supposed to be. I also feel invisible to those around me.
I would love if anyone is able to just talk to me about stuff, I don't want to make the friends I do actually have feel like they have to help me with this ;_;.
Kindness costs you nothing.